gerrie-love-dear

2010-09-12T18:31:00.002+08:00

hmmm just suddenly feel lyk posting. cos i dunno hu can i turn to? or can i just say tt no one i can turn to? i dunno either. ): yesterday ton, morning jsut got hm. n guess wat's the first thing tt i dream abt??? is a wonderful dream n yet my ah ma n her frens tok until so loud. lyk they are in singapore n her frens are in other country lyk tt. wat de fuck??? hate u guys la. i think i'm a failure. no one can be as a failure as me. wat stupid act i do was to go n open her drawer tt is full of her staff n took out our couple ring. n guess wat i do next. i intend to just have a look at it, but in de end??? i wore it back. n is on my finger rite now. wat de fuck is tis??? wat m i doing?? wat m i thinking??? y is my heart ach lyk fuck??? y must i stil miss her lyk dunno wat shit??? wat m i waiting for??? i wish to see her, but i dun dare to see her. tis feeling is suck mans. i hate u la~~~ do i always mean whn i said those awful words abt u??? does my heart pain whnever i said those words??? wat i inventually wants??? wat do i really wish to have??? hu is de one tt really live in my heart??? hu can just tel me or at least let me noe wat i wan n thinking??? haix~~~~ * tears rolling down lyk i'm gg to flood the whole alj. *

2010-04-27T19:46:00.002+08:00

i dunno y i m feeling in tis manner. just have de feeling of tearing. i knew tt we wont last long. cos which gal dun wish to have a proper marriage? the way she treat me is so different....... everyone said that they wish to see her happy. but did anyone care abt my feelings and thought. is just lyk only she exist in tis world. but i dun. i dunno la. i m so confuess now. afternoon told her that maybe got a gal wanna jio me. guess wat she told me, thn you go happy hour wif her lor. she ask me enjoy. she say tis is cos of wat? so that whn guys wanna jio her, she can go happy wif him go enjoy wif him? haix. last time she wont lyk tt tok to me de lor. i just dunno y. i fell FUCKING TIRED!!!!! how i wish i can tel her what i m actually thinking and feeling. BUT I CUNT!!! yet she tel me i dun hide. but i just cunt tel u. i dunno la. KILL ME PLS!!!! HAIX. ):

2010-04-25T19:58:00.002+08:00

i dunno y u need to tel my fren or anyone so detail abt ur staff. normally u wil just say tt oh i'm sick. haix. u told me tt u are having fever. yet u tel my fren tt u are having fever and sore throat. arghhhh i dunno la. i cunt say much nor tel u anything. i dun wan whn u sick tt time i stil add on to ur tong ku. i'm sry. i'm not an understanding person. stil got alot of thing u are hiding. n i dunno y. haix. sad sad.

2010-04-25T17:35:00.002+08:00

haix. but i m just feeling DAMNNNNNNNNNN HURTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!! too hurt to handle. i swear. haix. i dun dare to let her noe is simply just cos i scare tt she wil say ok lor since u are so un happy n so hurt thn we as well dun be together. haix. tis is y i wil post here. cos i really dun wish to let go. everyone around me is asking me to let go of her. but i just cunt do it. SAY IS EASY, BUT ONCE U REALLY DID IT, IS DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNN FUCKINGGGGGGGGGGGGGG HARDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!! we were bck together le but she told me tt she wanna all her freedom she wan, she wanna add guys n noe alot of guys. but why??????? yesterday my fren just told me tis sentence, no point la. cos she will want play what. what if you give her the freedom that she wants and end up she run with other ppl. arghhhhhhhhhh......... NICE ONE MAN. i oso dunno how. she told me she wont cos of other's break up wif me, she wont fall for guys and all tis. but serious say is easy. hu dunno how to say??? correct not???? haix. i really feel SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO INSECUREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE TO THE MAX AH. haix. i really hope tt our relationship can last long. i really hope lyk we were last time. ur cca got alot of guys. u can slowly make fren. just tt i wil feel damn hurt. i really dun wish u to make fren wif them.trust me, u wil fall for them one. haix. is our r/s really not working. i really dunno. i really hope it works. but i think u are sick n tired of me le ba. i dunno. u thold me tt ur fren said tt ur scl life is dead. last year u oso dun care abt wat they say. how come tis year u need bother abt wat they say???? just cos ur tao hua wil be very gd. alot of guys wil fall for u. and i noe u love those kind f feeling. feeling of being woo. but have u ever thought of my feelings???? if you really love me, u wil lyk last year. dun care abt wat others say n listen to me. i nv listen to any ex before. you are the first one. just cos i really love you deeply. not even lynn i listen. haix. i really dunno wat to do le. watever u wan i give u. all i can do is to keep silents lor. i cunt even say out anything. seriously. i really hope tt u wont be lyk tis. watever we are now, i dunno is couple or frens. we are lyk couple in one hand, but at another hand we are lyk frens... i dunno y must u let my feelings fade off. is not easy tolet my feelings fade u noe not. is really not easy. aft patch stil say wat if u stil insiste on breaking. haix. i dunno la. just feel lyk standing in the middle of high way and let those car bang me down one shot. n pls of cos is song ka la. i dun wan before i die oso must feel hurt. ouch...... my heart is hurting badly. haix..... why become lyk tt? haix.... we been so long we didnt tok on the phone, and yet she dun have the urge the hear my voice or cal me u noe??????????!!!!!!!!! means she dun even miss me. haix. GERRIE CHUA IS LOST AND DEAD. but how i wish i m really dead. anyone can make me die rite. i can grant ur wish. ( provied i really can do it one n is reasonable one) yuppp. haix shall say no more. if not ltr the more thing i say the more thing i wrong ah.

我真的很痛苦，为什么？？？？？！！！！
对不起，都是我的错！！！！
全不都是我的错。
* treas dropping non stop * ):

2009-10-13T20:56:00.000+08:00

k now gerrie have alot of problem.
see hu can help me slove k?

my gf is havine a dream tt i n other gals being sweet n all, plus wake up wif fear n sometimes wif tears. wat should i do? i m really too lost 2 slove myself le.
haix~~~~

GERRIE IS FEELING FUCKING LOST NOW!
dunnno how helpo myself n my gf...
i totally cunt feel love at all. not even a single bit u noe? is lyk last time i use 2 b de only one. now? been share wif dunno how many ppl. she stil say tt she is being share wif alot of ppl whn she is not. mayb tt how she feel.... i dunno la. haix.

LOST LE!!!!

2009-08-03T21:55:00.000+08:00

wat a bad day i had.

i shall say my story here.
sunday i didnt go work,i saidtt i m sick whn i m not.
i noe is my fault. aft tt they say they wanna MC.
i alr told them i dun have MC le.
they say they dun care, thn i oso dun care lor.
ah bo wat u wan me 2 react?
correct?
thn went 2 shop 2 work 2day.
SHE ask for my MC, whn i lr told her i dun have.
thn she said tt she wan cut my pay.
is lyk wat de fuck. thn had a BIG QUARREL wif her.
called my dad n ask him wat i should do.
my dad say they wan sack me jiu let them sack me, wan cut my pay jiu cut.
is lyk, not money matters leh. is i bu shuang tt they wanna cut my pay whn in the first place i dunno anything.
CORRECT?
ahya thn i dunno la.
i n her nearly fight, i noe theres no point doing tis.
but tts my temper.
u tok 2 me nicly i wil tok 2 u nicly, but if u shout at me, i sure shout bak at u de.
no matter wat post or hu u are.
thn she tok alot. thn i said.
no need tok so much, i ask u 1 last time u wan sack me isit?
thn she say no.
thn no need tok so much le wat. correct?
thn my fault again. thn she complain 2 HIM.
thn he ask me cal him, i dun wan. she say IS A MUST.
lyk wat de hell. u ask me cal jiu cal ah.
i oso not ur DOG. si i called my bro.
he ask me dun so angry first. ask me cool down first.
if i not wrong she was thining how coem i can tok 2 others nicely but not her.
is not i dun wan tok 2 her nicely, is.... haix k nvm. ):

hu can tel me wat i should do?
having everything lost, lost of sense n all.
how i wish lyk last time lyk tt.
whn i m lost or wat, my gf n my frens wil b there 2 guide me.
now? gf working, frens= NO MORE.
haix.... );

~~gerrie is lost. n loose everything.~~

2009-06-13T13:46:00.002+08:00

was chatting wif lycia rite now.
my feeling is lyk i n her so long nv tok liao lor
thn some how miss those days tt me n them play n laugh n went out together n all.
how i wish tt we can just lyk last time, everytime go out together n slack, joke n had fun togehter.
yupp.

just simply hope me n them can get closer.
yupp.
haix.
just end here le bye si.

2009-06-05T14:37:00.001+08:00

wish list:
5th month anni
couple tees
couple wallet
couple neckless
couple watch
couple cup
couple rings
couple phone
pants (long n short) (mummy buying 4 me)
polo tees (adidas)
cig case (wif my name on it)
zippo lighter(wif my name on it)
adidas jacket
adidas polo tees
adidas watch
half leg tattoo
more piercing
more time wif my little snail
she wil be more sweet towards her snail shell
have surprise on my actual bday.
laptop
new phone.
ipod (MP3)
new bags
they wil drink wif me on my bbq.

think tt all for it ba. if stil have thn shall post next time. yupps.

dear just hope tt we can last REAL long. n pls dumb dumb can we just stop our quarrels n just b real SWEET. hope u can just lyk those normal gals be sweet n real nice towards me. n hope u can spent more time wif me. n lastly hope i m still as important as b4 or even more important..

2009-04-24T12:26:00.002+08:00

once u love someone, no matter wat.
got stead la or love other ppl la or other thing la.
just con waiting if u stil love him.
just dun give up so easy.
there's chance de.
even tt person tel u no more chance or wat, dun believe.
it may turn out other way cos we wont noe wat wil happen next wat rite?
wat if i dayhe really come bck 2 ur side but u alr give up on him le.
bu si hen wasted?
think abt it ba.
yupp.

haha.

just rem tis sentence; once u really love tt person, no matter wat wait 4 his/her return.
dun give up so easy if u really love him.

2009-03-19T17:50:00.003+08:00

no one get my meaning.
NO ONE.
suan le.
since u think tt i wan u leave me alone thn i shall let u b ba.
ON ONE GET MY MEANING.
suan le la.

gerrie chua; fuck off n die ba.

cry is wat i can do.
so useless of me.
i just hope 2 cry it out loud so tt i wil feel better?
but i cunt.
i dun wish tt u wil leave me alone.
u get mu meaning ma?
haix si.

2009-03-19T17:10:00.000+08:00

past few weeks, i dunnno wat the fuck happen 2 me.
i cunt imagine tt i give att n shout at my beloved gf leh.
i dun shout or give her att de.
but i really dunno wat happen 2 me.
i been giving att towards all my fren n my gf.
dear sry.
i really dunno wat happen 2 me n y m i changing into lyk tis.
give me some time can?
i really hate those feeling.
pushing me here n there lyk a toy, say i lyk them which is not true n many more.
do u really love me n hope to last long wif me?
do u really wanna a serious r/s?
they fall in love wif me oso not i fall in love wif them wat rite?
i noe u scare i fall for them but i wont k.
i only love u nia.
sometime u play play is ok but i dun wish tt it will become a quarrel.
thn aft tt we have cold war.
u get my meaning ma?
i just wanna a gd r/s wif u.
i dun wan my dreams 2 come true.
believe it or not, up 2 you k.
i really dunno wat 2 say anymore.
haix.

sometimes i just wish 2 be alone.
to think wat had happen 2 me,
to think wat we can do 2 make it better.
but once i say i wanna b alone,
u sure wil leave me alone de.
but i dun wan.
ah ya i oso dunno wat i m trying 2 say n wat i wan oso la.
haix si.
suan le.
i should think it through ba.

mayb once i leave u,
u wil have a better life?
mayb once i leave u,
u wont get into trouble?
mayb once i leave u,
u wil.... ah i dunno la.
but i wil regret.
haix.
dunno la.
let me think abt it ba.

i hope i wil change bck 2 those time.
tt u love the most de.
u love de ren is last time de me,
not now de me ba.
yupp.
sry.

DEAR i'm sry.
darling; i love you.

2008-11-21T10:00:00.000+08:00

since i heard abt ur staff...
my mood change 360 degs.
haix i dunno y either.
even worst tt day i saw u lyk tis make my heart pain until max.
dun ask me y i dunno.
really dunno.
how i wish tt i can pei u all de way whnever u are down or angry.
i dun mind i let u beat/bite/scold or even do something worst on me.
i just hope aft everything u will feel better.
i just wanna c u smile rather thn....
yupp.
gal i just wish 4 ur smile.
even though i wish 4 ur return la.
but i noe is immposible de la.
but haix.
i dunnoo....
no matter wat.
just rem gerrie is always here 4 u.
no matter wat.

你的回话凌乱着
在这个时刻
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽
甜蜜散落了
清绪莫名的拉扯
我还爱你呢
而你断断续续唱着歌
假装没事了
时间过了
走了
爱情面临选择
你冷了
倦了
我哭了
一开始的不快乐
你用卡片手写着
有些爱只给到这
真的痛了
怎么了
你累了
说好的
幸福呢
我懂了
不说了
爱淡了
梦远了
开心与不开心一一细数着
你再不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不懂了
说好的
幸福呢
我错了
泪干了
放手了
后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

2008-11-07T08:49:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 MY GU GU!
tt day,wow.i did alot of hurting staff 2 eileen,my mei n gu gu.
opps!
sry didnt meant 2 do it de.
but,haix poor thing 2 eileen mans.
kanna hurt by me dunno how many times ah.
WOW.better dun tel her if not she wil cal me n say me"wa stil dare 2 say ah"
haha.but u c me n her de reaction is DAMN freaking funny de can.
u will laugh til ur teeth drop finish stil laughing ah.
haha.
k happy staff shall not say anymore.

Now saddest thing.
I M LOST NOW.
I DUNNO WAT 2 DO?
u had fallen 4 other guys whn i dun even noe anything abt it.
n i dunno how 2 react.
but haix.
nvm i told u b4 le.
i dun mind loosing anything just 2 exchange ur happinest.
u happy equally 2 my happinest.
GAL I LOVE YOU.
haix.
last question i m thinking is:WILL I HAVE ANY CHANCE FRM U AGAIN?
HAIX.!!!!

2008-10-08T12:01:00.002+08:00

IMISSYOU.
gal can u treat me better.
stop treating me in tis manner hao ma.

HURT IS ALL I HAVE NOW.
CRY IS ALL I CAN DO NOW.
LOVE IS ALL I WAN FRM YOU NOW.
CAN I HAVE ALL TIS NOW.
PLS.

GAL I NEED U BADLY.

2008-10-05T14:36:00.000+08:00

i been longing 2 see you.
i been longing 2 hear ur voice each day.
i been missing ur everything each day tt i live.
i been waiting for u 2 come bck 2 my side.

my heart;there's no room for other ppl.only have you.
my eveything is yours le.
why cunt u just believe me.

i really need youby my side.
every min of my life.
time passes so fast tt i find out tt u really dun love me anymore.
how come it will turn out tis manner.
gal pls come bck hao ma.
i promise tt i only love you.
my one and only.
just rem wat i promise you.
i will always love you till the last breath of mine.
gal ILOVEYOU.

~~tt was the last time i cal you darling,dear all those staff.wish i miss lots lots.can i call you dear once again n can i hear u cal me dear n all again.may i? IMISSYOU;ILOVEYOU turly madly deeply.~~>

2008-09-10T15:46:00.000+08:00

i bet u have misunderstood me le.
cunt u just let me explain to you?
i noe u wil say is not important or hu u r 2 me tt i need 2 explain myself?
but haix i dunno how 2 ans u la.
i just got 2 let u noe is not wat u think those kind jiu si le.
n i been changing.
i dunno why.
do u noe how i wish 2 tel i miss alot n i love u tons.
those hu noe ne de big til small,
all noe tt i m still waiting for you.
give me last chance hao ma.
i really need it.
i really need you.
ppl been seeing me in a sad or no mood face hardly see me in a happy face.
n they ask me why.
i dunno i should cry n tel them or i should keep quite.
haix.
i dunno wat 2 say le la.
i just wanna meet YOU!

*GAL ILOVEYOU & IMISSYOU*

~~come bck to me hao me.i really need you alot n i really love you only.i noe u have fallen for other ppl le,but i still dunno why i still love you tt deep.haix~~

2008-08-26T16:46:00.000+08:00

tis is de second time u hurt me so deep.
n i can tel u,
i really dunno wat i should do.
i m lost.
haix.
up 2 u ba.
i dunno u la.
but i got 2 tel u.
dun make me turn mad if not sure die de.
dun try me.
i m not a person tt u can dare wif.
so as u i noe.
all i asking frm u is RETURN.
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i dunno y i m so stupid tt i have 2 do all tis thing 4 u.
whn u dun even love me.
even worst whn u have fallen 4 other ppl.
if u really fallen 4 tt guy thn go 4 it.
just rem tis.
dun say ILOVEYOU whn u dun mean it.
dun say IMISSYOU whn u dun miss it.
dun HUG tt guy if u dun wish tt he wil come bck.
dun treat tt guy too gd whn u just wanna be a normal fren wif hm.
haix.
i dunno la.
let time make de choice 4 me ba.
i m really SICK N TIRED of being hurt le.
cunt u all just mean wat u saying.
so wat if i promises u tt i wil love you til de end of my breath.
so wat if i say i only love u.
but have u ever thought tt everybody takes two hand 2 clap not one hand.
get my meaning.
haix.
nvm.
i just hope tt u will RETURN 1 day.
i m waiting for you each day.
even though i noe u wont.
cos u alr dun love me le.
u just simply love tt guy which 1 dun even hu.
WAITING FOR YOU.
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so wat everyone sees my face was a happy face?
so wat i can joke around everyday?
so wat i can cheer u guy up whn i m deeply down?
so wat i can live happily as wat u guys have seen everyday?
but have u all ever thought wat i m really thinking deep down in my heart?
have u all ever really concern abt me?
abt my everything?
i have not been eating so wat!
i been drinking on an empty stomach so wat!
no one cares anyway.
i noe i should tc myself but i just wont.
so just leave everything alone ba.
i simply hate my life now.
no one care no one love.
wat a gd job i had 4 myself.

dun say iloveyou to me whn u dun love me.dun say imissyou whn u dun even miss me.dun say ijustwanu whn u have fallen for other guys. gerrie is simply being hurt by u.hurt until cunt hurt those kind.just feel lyk killing myself now.haix

2008-08-14T14:50:00.001+08:00

y must u lyk tis treat me whn i noe my fault n willing 2 change 4 u?
y must u bluff me?
y must u lie 2 me.
cunt i just have another change frm u whn i really need it?
all i ask is ur love,care n concern.
gal i wanna u bck.
i really love u alot.
pls gal i need u in my life.
i really love you alot do u noe tt.
cos of u i cry 4 three weeks.
cos of u i can do watever u wanna me 2 do.
dun lyk tis treat me hao ma.
dun torture me hao ma.
i noe i last time hurt u alot n is those tons,
n i noe now u hate me tons.
but pls gal i wanna u.
cos of u i hurt myslef n thought of killing mysef.
but i just dunno y i just cunt die.
FAIL! fail all de way.
i m really lost le.
i really need u in my life n guide me through,
gal pls.
haix i dunno wat 2 say le.
since u hate me ton n really wish tt i can disapear,
i shall try my BEST 2 do it 4 u.
if i really pass,
i hope u can just appear at my song ka 4 those days.
can you?
n i really wish tt u can send me off.
at least let me c 4 tis last time.
dun leave me hao ma.
pls come bck 2 me.
i beg u.
i really need n love u tons.
I SEAR.
I LOVE YOU TONS NO MATTER WAT.

~~no matter wat happen u will still live me my heart.the reason is very simper cos i love you tons n i only love you.~~

gal i love you tons n i mess you tons.pls stop hurting me whn i get bck everything n mayb i cunt bu chang.but i really dunno how 2 live on le.lastly i wanna say is i really cunt live w/o u! X/3 i m hurt by u once again.

2008-07-29T15:09:00.001+08:00

i really dunno wat 2 say.
i just feel lyk posting.
my mood damn fucking bad.
i just wanna say gal i love you n i nv thought of letting u go.
so pls dun ever thought of letting me go can you?
i really need u now.
i just dunno y theres so much fear in my life.
i just dunno y?
haix.TT
gerrie is damn fucking down now.

~~JUST LEAVE ME ALONE SINCE I M BEING LEFT ALONE.~~

~~JUST LEAVE ME ALONE SINCE U THOUGHT OF LETTING ME GO.~~

i just simply cunt find a reason 4 u 2 lie 2 me.really i find no reason.haix.pls dun let me go.i really cunt loose u.if i really loose u i rather end my life.just cos i wanna u 2 be my last romance.no 1 can replace u in my heart.gal ~~I LOVE YOU.~~

2008-07-18T09:15:00.000+08:00

bck frm space.haha.
no time 2 blog cos got 2 work n study ya.
i think i really dun have time 4 my frens n all my gans lor.
oh pls dun blame me 4 tt ya. haha.
think all of u must be very very miss me ba ya.haha.
nth 2 post leh.sian
k think shall say abt my bday ba ya.
my bday oh really having a "GREAT" time man.
haix.nvm dun dig my "happy" staff ya.
haha.i thought of posting wat thn i post ba.
bye bye. (wavey wavey)

~~gal i love you.pls dun try 2 hurt me can.wat i need is ur care n corcen plus love.n i need ur understanding plus u urself.ya DARLING I LOVE YOU DEEPLY.~~

2008-05-26T14:36:00.000+08:00

friday is a fuck day 4 me...
haix...nearly die at hm man...hahaha...cut short de ya...
shall not say in detail...
sat is me n lynn de anni...(3month)
wat de hell...my 3 month i spent wif my tv n my bed...nice anni i have b4 man...
thn she go out wif her fren rather thn meet me...ok lor since she wan lyk tis she cunt blame me 4 doing all those thing tt she will regret de lor...hope she noe tt she is in e wrong...haix..thn i tel her go through her anni wif her fren la hor...in the end she say me bck u oso...but i didnt even go out lor...wat de fuck...tis few weeks she been giving me a fucking att sure will make until tis r/s very fuck de lor...haix...wat she wan sia...i dunno la...

sunday; even fuck day 4 me sia...haix...i dunno la...i was damn unhappy lor...haix..STRESS UP SIA....
haix....

MONDAY; i now having exam yet i blogging...haix...sure fail de lor...how...MY 70% GONE LIAO LA...cry.. ):haix...

cos of gal u treat me lyk tis..wat de hell...even if u all dun lyk me just tel me...dun haix me ok...m i really ur ture fren u go n think abt it...u noe me how long n we been fren 4 lyk more th 4 years yet tis kind of thing happen...u go n think abt it...dun u think cos of tis u just say wat dun meet us all tis...think la k...

2008-05-21T13:19:00.000+08:00

dun you think ever since u have them le...we are not lyk last time so close...whn we was in sec 3 n 4...dun u think tt time we were lyk damn close...close until we still thought of buying together n stay together...even you have bf i have gf so...think u have negladted me...even i have gf i oso wont lyk tis treat u all lor...y must u all treat me lyk tis whn i need u all the most...now i n her bcome lyk tis...n i m damn fucking fan le...i think u all now stand 4 each other no need 2 stand by me liao rite...last time everyday cal me n go out all tis now leh...i rot at hm...wat is tis...haix...nvm...mayb is i cuase all tis 2 happen de ba...haix...nvm...

~~you all have neglated me dun you all think so~~

2008-05-15T18:05:00.001+08:00

wa i think i MIA for very de very long liao hor...
nvm...bck now...haix... k shall tel u abt me n her staff...
we been lyk having cold war since she say she wint forgive me no matter wat i do...cos on 3rd of may 2 gals came 2 my hse in the morning...n afternoon i met eileen nu er com mei n yan ting mei...just 2 teach them math so tt they can pass...but in the end she got the wrong idea...haix...i oso dunno la...so i told her wait till she cool down le thn tok 2 me ba...haix...my exam comeing le n i need 2 study le...FUCK lor...so sian...stress over relationship,family pro,studies n my fren...wat de hell...my brain got so big 2 help u all ma...i myself gg 2 die le thn i thought my gf will understand me but in the end she tis few days keep on say abt eileen n ask me y i n tok 2 her all tis...where got gf ask thier own bf go n tok 2 other gals de...eeee...i dunno her la...mayb let her cool down thn say ba....c wat will happen lor...mayb it will have a bad news 4 u all or a gd news i dunno....n i dun wan go n think cos my brain alr no space 4 all tis staff le...i now damn fucking confuess can...dunno wat 2 do la...haix...mayb i hould not care anymore n just think abt L... can liao lor...watever la...haix...no mood liao la...HAIX....
i m strugging alone...
WHAT DE FUCK!!!!

WILL MIA FRM NOW ON...

~~everything has change i can tel u tis...can u just tel me wat u wan thn treating me cold n make me break wif u...if wanna break just say i will let u go...i really dunno wat u wan...~~

2008-04-06T07:55:00.000+08:00

baby...
I promise u my heart...
I promise u my life...
I promise we'll never b apart...
I promise not 2 hurt u...
I promise 2 never make u cry...
I promise 2 always trust you...
I promise not 2 lie...
I promise u 4ever...
I promise 2 do things right...
I promise 2 always b there...
I promise until the end...
I promise 2 b ur boy...
I promise this forever your the PEANUT to my BUTTERyour the STAR to my BURSTyour the POP to my TARTyour the MILKY to my WAYyour the FRUIT to my LOOPyour the LUCKY to my CHARMSyour the ICE to my CREAMbut mostly...
you r the only 1 i love!!
i hope we will lyk last time lyk tis so lovely...
all i wanna say now is DUI BU QI....
i m really sry 4 all the tears n hurt towards u...
haix...

2008-04-06T01:10:00.001+08:00

hu wan buy mp3....
creative zen v plus;
at half price...
selling at $150...
brought price $400...
use once only...
brand new de...
pls contact me if u wish 2 buy it...
thnks alot...

gerrie aka boy boy

2008-03-08T20:08:00.000+08:00

wat de hell...

2day me baobao,liyi,baby n my group of frens went up 2 roof top n play...
everything went smoothly leh...
but i suddenly thought of playing something n find out something over there...
which i n baobao went thought b4...
so i ask jay 2 tap on my "lights" thn aft tt i n jay go n run a circle...
baby told me tt she saw something run though her n liyi...
but i dunno until whn we come down thn we noe de...
i just saw a litter boy sitting bside us n keep on looking at us only...
but baobao saw 2 "ppl" looking at me,baobao,xiaopang,mingjie n crystal(ah sun)...
i was lyk k nvm...
i told them 2 leave cos baby say she wanna go hm...
so k lor...
we jiu went go down thn i tel them u all go first i wan go toliet...
but baobao tel me let go downstairs de toilet...
thn i saw her eyes got tears liao...
thn i noe something wrong liao...
so i ask them walk infront...
but e more we walk n say abt it..,
we found out even more "thing"...
my baby is not my baby...
my ah yi(baobao) is not my ah yi...
thn they say gerrie is not their gerrie...
i n baobao face turn 2 white aft we came out...
wa i was so piss off n fuck up wif it can...
n i lost something...
tt y i thing 2day is not a gd day 4 me...
somemore we stil go up whn we only got 7 ppl...
aft tt my ah sun come so got 8 rite...
but ivan they all come...
so total we got 11 PPL...
wa really very fuck up wif tt...
nvm...
it's over...
n i will go bck there n find it out de...
so shack 2day...
cos i heard something tt make me so shack...
haix nvm...

wat i saw n wat i hear n wat i think is TOTALLY different u noe ma...ah bo i give u tt toy n hug 4 wat...cos i was thinking something...n i alr very shack liao i just dun wan say out only...in the end wat i saw n my mind jiu think something liao...haix nvm...i will understand it de la...so no need 2 bother abt me ya...

2008-03-02T17:15:00.000+08:00

wat de hell...
on 28 feb,i send grace offf in the end she treat me a glass bottle lyk tis lor...
wat de hell...
is she ask me whether i will send her off anot in the end leh...
how she treat me...
k let me tel u how my days go on,on tt day...
morning i went 2 scl...
thn i msg my jie shi li 2 c whether she got send her off anot...
she tel me she 9 thn finish work n dunno got enough time 2 send her off ma...
thn we say shall see got fate anot lor...
so in the we go fate 2 send her off...
but i think is not my fate lor...
is my jie's fate...
k nvm...
aft tt grace ask me abt tt but i tel her i dunno will send her off ma...
n i told her tt i will tel her ltr...
in the end i tel her i got go..
she tel me OK!!!
but i say i will come down wif shili...
i ask her 2 wait 4 me 2 come...
in the end leh...
i n rui ting went 2 airport she just simply treat us lyk transparent lor...
WAT THE HELL rite...
haix...
thn i tel my mei n myself tt next time they wanna fly 2 where n how long...
n ask me go...
I SWEAR I WONT GO AGAIN...
no matter is hu...
regarding them de i sure wont go de...
make me feel so wat can...
waste my time only lor...
thn aft tt i went bck hm....
do everything hao le...
my BABY called me n we chat till very de late...
ya...
thn she tel me dun angry cos of tis...
so k lor...
i shall hack care abt it lor...
the end...
now i wan say is i have no CIG...
HOW!!!!!
shack sia...
haix...

grace i been nice 2 u le hor...even though u treat me lyk tis but i still send u tt msg...but u seems lyk nth lyk tis lor...so nvm la...let it be la...tt shall be my last time calling u JIE liao k...tt it...gal,GERRIE wanna let u noe somthing...tt is GERRIE LOVE U...<3>

2008-02-21T05:50:00.001+08:00
since u hope tt u n him will have 1yr anni rite...
thn go 4 it la...
u love him until now...
y dun u go n ask him leh...
n let him noe u love him tt much...
n wont hurt or leave him anymore...
n dun hong ppl or have a mix feeling i tel u...
cos lyk tis u will hurt alot of ppl ya...
ya...
dunno wat 2 say liao la...
i dun wish 2 care abt u n his staff liao la...
i wanna hack care...
e both of u staff rite...
leave me alone...
i dun wish 2 interfer...
all tis staff not toking abt u ya...
tt is...

gerrie is hurt...
boy boy is moody...
FUCK YOU...
ASS HOLE...
NBCB...
GO N HONG GAN LA...

~~gerrie wanna u 2 b his...may u...~~

2008-02-15T07:45:00.000+08:00
may hu tel me y i having a suck day 2day...
at first very happy leh...
but aft my lunch my mood is lyk wa e hill sia...
wat de hell...
wat has happen sia...
why will bcome lyk tis de...
WHY WHY WHY WHY???
y i cunt just let her go leh...
y must i keep thinking abt her...
is she so gd tt really worth me tis person 2 b sad just cos of her...
is it worth...
if is not worth y must i keep holding it...
i now can have alot of choice but...,
haix i oso dunno...
no matter how many stead i change...
i just cunt haix...
should noe wat i wanna say liao rite...
haix...
wat de hell is happening 2 me...
2nite thought of drinking...
but i scare my hse beer let me drink finish how sia...
haix...
sad sad de boy boy... :(

2008-01-31T06:10:00.000+08:00
eh fucker...u lyk me is ur dai ji la hor...stop msging me n cal me k...if let other gals noe rite wait they think i very hong thn i lyk tt gal will oso not happy de k...so just FUCK OFF MY LIFE RITE NOW...i dun need u n i dun u need me anot...cos i dun even lyk u b4 la k...n i got lyk other ppl liao so tt gal will not b happy if she noe abt it...y i dun lyk u...1 u dun have e look...2 u dun have figure...3 u got a very fucking att tt most guys wont lyk abt it ya...so can u just fuck off my life n stop being a PLK la k...is not nice 4 a guy 2 scold u all tis kind of staff but i got no choice so i have 2 say it out 2 u...lastly i HATE YOU...damn piss off now wif u...u better dun make until me again if not u will have a taste of loosing e person u love....i will sure stay away frm u n pretend tt i dun even noe u b4...go hm n think la hor...THINK B4 U SPEAK 2 ME...

gerrie is very de very angry now...

2008-01-09T11:49:00.000+08:00
cos of tt FUCKER i need 2 fight wif a bunk...wat de hell rite...somemore is not my fault la can...thn tt fucker need 2 make until so worst ma...if is not cos of u my nose wont bleed...n it really bleed k...no joke k...u really make me until i very too lan wif u can...n i m not happy wif u i really wish 2 beat u until u really noe tt i m not wat u think those kind of useless person k...n i can tel u if it happen again rite i will MAKE SURE u DIE...k...u better think b4 u say or act anything k...fucker i really hate u alot...haix me n HER have some misunderstanding k...is cos of u...hu started de k...

gal can u dun believe wat other say...u should believe wat i tel u wat rite...i really dun wish 2 fight wif her de...but i really got no choice...i hope u can give me a chance 2 explain 2 u...i really need 2 explain 2 u wat happen n everything...can i...will u believe wat i told u or u will believe her...haix...

2008-01-04T12:57:00.000+08:00
everybody, hope i will get in ya...cos 2day just ya...those hu noe me should noe la hor...cos ya lor...police call me jiu happy liao lor...sure go in de lor...nvm lyk tis better...haha...now i think i have fallen bck 2 u le...but i just dun wan u 2 noe cos i scare again la...k if u tel me tt dun cut myself i will...i wont say no 2 u unless those staff tt will harm u or hurt u de lor...how should i express my love 2 u leh...let me think...i oso dunno...so nvm la...let it be ba ya...now i just wan concertrate on u...no other gals liao...no more...hope u will be e 1 tt make me feel happy again...WILL U BE DE 1 TT MAKE ME FEEL MEANINGFULL IN MY LIFE???will u???i hope u can be my one n only...i dun wan share...ya...GAL I LOVE YOU...

no more chance will be given 2 u...i have no love 4 u anymore so u are rite....i think...n i can tel u i wan woo her bck...k i noe u will say tt u sy those staff is rite liao but i dun care...cos i really love her...gal ILU n IMU...

2007-12-25T18:56:00.000+08:00
dear,y must u choose tis path 2 let us suffer even more...we can tok thing out but u choose not 2...dun say abt HER, cos i n her is wont b together again...she wont fall bck 4 me so do i...if u still wan think tt i will thn i go tnth 2 say liao le...dear i wan u bck...DEAR I LOVE YOU....no 1 will b replacing u liao only u can...tis is e worst n fuck chrirstmas present i get it frm u...i dun wan....I DUN WAN....dear...i will nv let you n say a worst gdbye 2 u...cos i wan say hi my beloved dear 2 u...but can i...sob sob....dun wan say le...will drop tears de leh...so ya...

EILEEN HO i love you...how abt u...i dun wan break but u wan 2 so i got no choose but 2 let u go...i wish u could turn bck 2 myside..will u...EILEEN HO I REALLY LOVE U LOTS...n miss u lots...I M SRY....

2007-12-10T00:33:00.000+08:00
2day INTEND 2 go DXO de...but fuck la 1 of my fren cunt go in cos no 1 wan lent him IC...so all dun go lor...ah bo i now can tel u all wat had happen in DXO liao lor...wat de fuck...wasted sia...thn nvm kanna tua by tt fucking 204...he think he very gd ah...hate him sia...everytime wan cheat our money only lor...ask him go n die la...thn tis few days dunno y la...not in e mood 2 play black jack wif any1...i oso dunno y de lor...fuck sia...haix...

"baby", i m sry tt i had hurt u so deeply...I M SRY...but remember wat i said 2 u tt day...k...if u really love him rite...go n fight 4 it...no matter wat he got stead or dun have...do something tt can touches his heart...mayb he will come bck 2 u leh...u will nv noe...remember U NV TRY,U WILL NV NOE...understand wat i wan say ma....lastly dun hurt urself cos of him...IS NOT WORTH IT...

2007-09-25T04:25:00.000+08:00
gal...
i hate u...
gal...
but i love u lots...
gal...
do u noe tt i been loving u...
gal...
cunt u feel it...
gal...
i feel so sad sia...
COS OF U...

gerrie aka boy boy love you...

mucks...

gal I LOVE YOU....

2007-08-31T08:50:00.000+08:00
how i hope tt u can pei me go bck bedok hq n report sia...can u pls....i dunno whether tt is e last x i can c u haix...hope u can pei me go hao ma...pls.i beg u...haix...love u...

gerrie aka boy boy love u....

2007-08-01T08:58:00.000+08:00
daddy y must u leave me...haix...i just cunt face e fact do u noe anot....haix...u had made me hungry, slients n no smile at all lor...daddy i been crying 4 u do u noe tt...haix...i dunno where the i m gg 2 ur song ka anot....i hope t can go la ya...dun worry daddy i will take care of myself de ya...

daddy i miss you...daddy i love you...daddy R.I.P ba...haix....

now no mood 2 tok...i m damn sad la can...haix....

gerrie er zi love alvin daddy....u will live in my heart ya...dun worry i wont 4get abt u de ya....

once again DADDY I LOVE U....

DADDY REST IN PEACE BA....

2007-07-28T01:18:00.000+08:00
wa i at first is damn sad de lor...but aft 12 am i damn happy la somemore i cycling la...thn aft tt i got msg thn i mostly wont read but i dunno y i go n read leh...thn aft tt something happen lor so i damn happy now haha...shall end here le ya...BYE BYE....

MISS SOMEONE SO BADLY N STRESS NOW LA....HAIX...

~~gerrie love someone....love u de most ya...~~

2007-07-24T03:43:00.000+08:00
I M SO PISS OFF N FUCK UP NOW LA CAN...SO FAN MAN...

can u dun angry wif me liao ma...haix...feel so guilty n sad abt it....nvm...u wont noe wat i m thinking ya...i dunno i need 2 wait 4 how long thn can haix nth....i shall keep it 2 myself...shall not post out if not something will happen again....

~~gerrie is so sad n fan abt it....i m so sry tt i last x treat u lyk tis....i felt so guilty la can...i m willing 2 change but r u willing 2 give me a change....~~

2007-07-12T15:53:00.000+08:00
haix dunno wat 2 write so i shall not post cos no mood 2 post....

fucker dm wan cut my hair again...thn my hair kanna cut again liao la fuck her upside down ah....

how i wish tt i can hug u tightly n nv let u go...how i wish tt i can pei u go very where u wan b go...i dun mind how far is it i will still go n meet u...even if u wan me meet u early in e morning i dun mind i need 2 wake up early...i dun mind i suffer as long as u nv suffer can liao le....all i ask is PATCH....joyce ah can i tel u again how much i love u....

2007-07-10T03:56:00.000+08:00
ppl jio me doesnt mean tt i need 2 give up on u ya....
how come u will feel tt i had give up on u sia...i still love u alot yesterday i told u all tt i refering 2 myself but i scare 2 let u noe tt i still love u cos i scare tt u will avoide me again thn e past come bck again I DUN WAN...u noe yesterday u tel me u wan buy ring tt x i was lyk so hurt la but in e end u tel me tt u buy 4 ur lao po so i m k wif it ya...haha...u can say tt u dunno me well la but e fact is u noe me damn well n i noe u damn well can le we noe in our heart can liao le ya....yesterday was so happy la cos we tok on e phone 4 quite a long x ya...so happy wif it ya....hope i can let u got feel wif me again thn we can patch le ya...but i dunno can anot...i scare i cunt make u have feeling 4 me thn i die ah haix dunno la shall walk n c ba ya...

GERRIE love JOYCE truly n deeply....i been waiting 4 u do u noe tt....i stil love u alot n i had not give up on u n i dun wan tel u tt i stil love u cos i scare u will avoide me again ya...joyce i been waiting 4 u n i really hope tt we can b together again....love you lot de gerrie

2007-07-05T04:00:00.000+08:00
i m so sian...wat can i do aft scl 2day...either thn slack n slack n slack...sian...slack finish le thn go where hm sian hm...haix...dunno la...miss her lot sia...

yesterday saw xin yu mei at mac....thn somthing happen...she go n hit my ear hit until so pain but nvm i got hit her bck but at nite she tel me very pain...i oso dunno leh...haix...thn now think she is angry wif me liao lor i oso dunno...hope she wont b angry wif me liao lor...mei mei sry la...haix...didnt mean it ya...n yesterday my fren didnt say u they are saying me tts y i didnt say anything...if they really say u i will sure say them bck de ya...i dote on u so much i wont let anyone lyk tis say u 4 nth de la ya...dun worry....n i didnt smoke ya...is they blow onto me de ya...dun angry wif me liao la ya...miss xin yu mei n HER lots...

i still love u alot n i need 2 let u noe something tt is i dun have new target...k i admit got 3 person lyk me la n 2 of them got jio me but i reject the 3 of them cos i tel them tt i still love my x alot tts y...do u noe abt tis...i m still hoping tt we can start afresh again ya...i been waiting 4 u...

2007-06-30T22:53:00.000+08:00
y must u think tt i go tnew target le leh..now i tel u frm my own mouth I DUN HAVE...haix mayb u think tt i got new target thn u r willing 2 tok 2 me thn i dun mind lor all i ask is 2 let me hear ur voice n chat wif u onyl...cos i wish tt we can b fren bck again...since we cunt b lover thn we shall b fren hao ma....

sry too long nv update le cos no x...now having ton...so tired la feel lyk slping sia wat de fuck...haix...nvm la...ltr go hm slp ba ya....

gerrie love jpyce...do u noe tt i noe something n it make me feel lyk killing myself but i noe i cunt cos i scare u no 1 take care n i promiss u tt i will take care if u till i de so i must keep tis promiss ya....i love you so much ; do u love me as much as i do....

2007-06-14T18:49:00.000+08:00
I WAN MAHJONG SET....N MAHJONG TABLE SO TT I CAN PLAY MAHJONG WIF FRENS...

I WAN MAHJONG SETS

2007-06-14T18:36:00.000+08:00
sian...once i start work thn got alot of thing happen lyk tis lor...cunt even go anywhere i lyk...haix...thn so sian la sitting in e shop n look at all those thing sian...why must everytime tia kind of thing happen 2 me de huh....y i must get into e war again...i thought once is over thn k le leh but how i noe now start again...haix...last x is sister n fren n oso the same but last x is 2 person now even worst is 3 person at the same x leh...very wat de lor...n very hard 2 choose lor...some more i got lyk de person liao leh thn wat can i do...haix...dunno la...i shall just wait n c ba...if they wan fight thn let it b ba i cunt do anything now...i m giving up on everything le...i dun wish 2 care n i dun wan b 3rd party tt all i noe...haix...if u can patch bck wif me thn all tis stupid thing wont happen liao rite....sian la...haix...thn scl reopening soon n my bday comeing le so sad sia....i dun wish so fast 2 b a bday boy u noe ma...haix...i dun wan b a bday boy whn u r not wif me...i wan wait till u r wif me thn i b a bday boy....i m so scare now la can...nv felt tis kind of feeling b4 la haix...how sad can it b....all i love is u....22222999 444 55566688833 99966688....noe wats tt...haha..nth...

very fast leh my mood can change until lyk wat leh haix how sia n y will lyk tis de ah ...dunno la...haix...sua la...

gerrie is very confuess now i m rite in e war now...wat m i gg 2 do...should i con waiting 4 joyce or i leave it 2 fate...last x i always say i must win u bck but now i think even if i win ur ren bck but how abt ur heart...i think i wont win it bck liao lor cos i think u lyk other ppl liao lor...remember even if i got a new stead i n her wont b real happy n wont last long...joyce i wan ur heart n ren bck...whn can i have it bck or i wont have a change anymore...haix...love is so hurtful la...watever la so fuck up now sian...

fuck off de gerrie aka boy boy

2007-05-31T18:21:00.000+08:00
feeling moody tis few day...haiz...2day felt so guilty la can cos of me she had 2 eat cup noodles...haiz...i m really sry...haiz...nv smile 4 a few days le i oso dunno leh....jst cunt get a smile on my face leh...eben if i really smile it look so fake la can...haiz...thn jst now my parents wan me 2 eta dinner wif thm so k lor...i go n eat wif thm lor...thn my daddy....
ask me whn i free...thn i ask him y...thn he say he wan bring me go c doc....thn i tel him i oso nv sick y wan c doc...thn he keep quit...thn aft tt my mumuy say wat i need 2 c a doc asap...but i say i oso nv sick c wat doc la....thn she say wat i got 2 c a xing lee doc...thn i say i oso nth wrong oso nv cut myself le or do anything funny le wat y need 2 c leh...she just tel me 2 go n c tt stupid doc asap...thn i tell her straight in her face tt i wont go n c de...my dad n her was lyk so disapointed la...but i really got no des wat...y must go n c leh...i only miss her too deep le wat tts y i will lyk tis de wat....
thn they think i kanna des. sian diao lor...haiz...thn afternoon whn i was watching my show tt x...my fcuking ah ma gon change wat chn la...thn her 1 can go other room n watch mine cunt thn she wan fight tv wif me...dunno wat the hell she is trying 2 do la...mayb cos i whole day nv tok lor...since i wake up until she make me i didnt even open my mouth la...cos i heard some news abt her which make me felt so xin tong n guilty....sian diao...thn i scold my grandmother...i was real piss off wif her la...thn i go n bath aft tt i went out thn i just walk off la...haiz...oso not my fault wat hu ask her wan come n make me whn i m in a bad mood...haiz...wats more can i say....haiz....tmw will b very busy i think...i oso dunno...cos i tmw afternoon not free thn at nite i think i oso not free sian...haiz...hui shan mei cheer up k...

joyce i m really sry tt u have 2 suffer cos of them haiz...felt so guilty la can....haiz...T.T....I M REALLY SRY....can u let me c u...i really miss u alot u noe ma...my heart is so empty do u noe...last x it was full of ur love,care n concern but now...ur heart still got all tis but how abt mine...all is gone le...whn thn can u fill it up 2 e orignal place tt is my heart...WHN....haiz....i been missing u n losing my smile each day u noe ma...no 1 can really understand wat i m think ing n feeling now...cos they r not me.....i love you , do you love me ? truly and deeply ?heart broken...tis question got 2 ask urself le...haiz...how i wish ur ans is...i love u de same s u love me....i miss u s much s u miss me...haix...dunno will it 2 b same or diff...haix...nvm...love u de gerrie chua n miss u de boy boy...

2007-05-27T16:15:00.000+08:00
haiz...i did a mei jie mummy ah yee n nu yer family photo...but too bad la cunt put over here...so sad sia...haiz...mayb i will try on friendster ba...ya...so those hu wan c de go my profile n c ba...n pls give me comments on my pic ya...thnks alot....

yesterday was damn angry wif my 2 mei la...haiz...if she wan tok 2 me thn she will msg me herslef or cal me i wont take e first step le...tts it...k

~~dun think tt my love 4 u is fake cos all is TURE....n i wont love other ppl ex u....gerrie love u...~~

2007-05-25T08:12:00.000+08:00
whn can u come bck 2 me....WHN....WHN WHN WHN WHN....
y u wan leave me...WHY....WHY WHY WHY WHY....

MY HEART REALLY HURTS ALOT N IT STILL BLEEDING....I M JUST WAITING 4 U 2 STOP MY BLEEDING...DO U NOE TT...I M JSUT WAITING 4 U 2 REPAIR MY BROKEN HEART...ONLY U CAN DO IT ON OTHER PPL CAN DO TT 4 ME....COS ONLY U R FIT 2 B....MY DR.LOH...LOVE HER LOTS....

2007-05-25T07:58:00.000+08:00
if i reslly dun have u in my life i rather die....

ah sun u wan die isi ..u tel me i will pei u die de..i got my own way 2 die faster thn u since i alr dun have ur ah ma le...so i have my own reason y i wan die...k...

on my bday tt day i really wish tt u can pei me cele it can u....i really hope 2 c u tt day....

~~joyce do u really wan 4get abt me...it really hurts u noe ma...i really need u bck n i wan u bck may i....I LOVE YOU.....muacks.................~~

2007-05-23T14:32:00.000+08:00
i totally change 2 another person le ma...where did i change...i m always moody n i m always sad...so make no diff...

xdear...do u really wan 4get wat had happen n isit really a horr. mer ma...r u refering 2 ours or wat...can u tel me i really wan noe...if u r saying abt me rite...thn i will make u 4get wat had happen...n i can make u 4get abt me...but i will b damn sad n i can tel u...u give me 1 day x i will let u 4get abt me if u really wan....on 18 i really hurts alot n i wont 4get it...i really treasure our relationship can u give me 1 last chance 2 b wif u again...PLS...i really love u alot dun u noe tt...everyone noe tt but how abt u...haiz....I REALLY LOVE U ALOT...give me 1 last chance ba....
i cunt take it anymore i wan boom le....haiz...

joyce i really love u alot n it really hurt me alot do u noe tt...can u stop hurting me by coming bck 2 me can u ...i really miss u alot do u noe...i wan u bck badly n i love u deeply...i wont give up on u de...but if u really wan 4get abt our past all i can do is DIE le thn i m sure u will 4get abt everything de...all i wan is u tel me wat u wan frm me...i ask me quit those bad habbit i have alr do it 4 u...but u promiss me de thing do u do it...haiz....i m still waiting...i wan u 2 b my laopo...n my family memebers really hope tt we can we 2gether again...tis few days alot of sad thing happen 2 me i really need u 2 come n support me n lead me hao ma n encourage me...dear WHERE HAVE U BEEN U ALR THROW AWAY TIS BIG BABY LE WHN THN U WAN TAKE IT BCK ~~WHN WHN WHN WHN.....*cry*....haiz....love u lot n i will always love u...~~

2007-05-18T17:39:00.000+08:00
i highlighted my hair...haha...n it make me look more handsome now sia haha...lame shit la me...

i really miss u badly u noe ma....every sec every min...i m missing u n loving u....i wont 4get 2 miss u de ya...i have love u 1 year le...how abt u...hope it still e same s me ya....joyce i love u...can we start afresh....pls i really love u alot...n i promiss u tt i will treasure u de...i wont let u go any more...GERRIE LOVE JOYCE ALWAYS...

2007-05-18T10:29:00.000+08:00

I DAMN PISS OFF NOW LA.. .PRAY TT I WONT KANNA CATCH BY POLICE N ENTER GALS HM BA....N HOPE TT I WILL WALK OUT W/O ANY INJURY DE YA...HOPE NTH HAPPEN 2 ME YA

2007-05-17T04:47:00.000+08:00
gerrie nis here 2 post le...wahaha...tis 2 week i m damn shack n i m damn tired la can...cos got tai ji thn actually is very small de but she go n make until very big thn i m damn piss off la...thn now sick liao le la wat de hell....

my exam dun ask me le la...cos i been thinking of her so i think i will fail al my paper la can...i totally have no mood 2 do my paper la haiz....wat had happen 2 me sia...whn thn i can c her...i really miss her damn lots la...haiz..mood tis few days keep on swinging la dun wan y they love 23 seat tt stupid swing sia...can they stop seating le...it x 2 go hm le haiz....sian....thn 2day my mei mei sick leh i oso dunno wat happen sia...haiz...thn lyk tis lor...haiz...how she will get well soon ya...tis few days i been playing mahjong...haha...

all the best ya....

all i love is u...no 1 else le...i will nv leave u alone in tis world de ya..cos i just cunt bear 2 live u alone in tis world...only u bear 2 leave me in tis stupid lonely world haix....i m so shack u noe ma....haiz...whn thn can we start a fresh....????WHN....WHN...WHN...i can do now is CRY...y...cos someone dun wan tis BIG BABY OF HERS LE.....arghhh....i love u deeply...n i can tel u tt is I REALLY MISS U....joyce i love u....dun leave me can...can we start a fresh...PLS...haiz....u really have no feeling 4 me le meh...only u noe e ans u can lie 2 us but u cunt lie 2 urself k...remember tis...tt i GERRIE CHUA will always be here 4 JOYCE LOH...no matter wat i will sure rush down just 4 e seek of u....i have love u 4 1 year le...no gal tt i really love n i treasure de...n dun 4get tt u r my only REAL STEAD....n tt i REALLY LOVE E GAL...i will always love u de ya....

2007-04-26T17:39:00.000+08:00

GUYS GO N TAKE A LOOK AT MY TAG BOARD YA...

2007-04-26T15:03:00.000+08:00

happy birthday 2 jaslin jie
n
mummy..........yea...

xin yu mei ah...cheer up k..just remember tt kor kor is always here 4 u de ya....dun 4get tt u r my bao bei mei mei ya...mei cheer up kor is always here 4 u...

wat the hell is happening 2 me...haiz...tis few days my mood is lyk downing down wards la can...cos of her la...cunt c her leh cos not gg 2 scl 4 2 months ya...haiz...i oso dunoo how sia...u tel me how la...haiz...do u really got stead...can tel me ma...is really upset 2 noe tt u got stead leh cos u really act lyk u dun have stead hao ma...is really very hard 4 me 2 believe tt u have a stead la...oc se words u had told me n everything la...u can make me died u can make me alive...once i proof 2 u tt i really can change 2 e old gerrie u noe u will b mine le...so i m waiting 4 next month only next month u will b mine le...all i been doing tis is not cos i determine myself 2 do tis is cos i did it just 4 de seek of u...if dun have u rite i wont b bothered hao ma....i will lyk hack care la...let me tel u tis once we r together again i wont allow anyone 2 break us up le...I WONT....i will make it alap liao le...haiz...i had learnt my lesson le...all i wish is u 2 come bck 2 me ya...ppl out there i wont b gg 2 scl 4 2 months le ya...thin u all will b missing me le ba ya...n i thin i will MIA too haha...i m considering...dunno la....if really rite...only SHE can find me...i will only ans her cal ya...

joyce do u really have a stead...????cos i really dunno i should believe tt u got a stead anot leh u noe ma...if u really got a stead thn how come u still tel me tt u will consider 2 b together again once e old gerrie is bck leh...y i keep feeling tt u stil love me de leh....is my six sence playing a fool on me or wat sia....can u pls let me noe cos i really need u by my side hao ma....joyce can we patch...i been changing 2 e old gerrie le wats more u still wan frm me....haiz....i quit all tis bad habit is cos of u not cos of wat k...now u tel me u toking 2 ur dear...is real dear or fake de dear...i really wish 2 noe wat u r thinking n wat is e real life of urs now u noe ma huh...i really scare tt i cunt take it thn explore lor...can u pls let me noe...haiz...been bothering abt tis staff all day long la....haiz...tts it 4 e day ya...

2007-04-21T14:02:00.000+08:00
frm next week on i wont be smoking n fire le...I WAN QUIT...n i tis time round really wan trouble free frm everyone ex. her.....if not i will die ah...all of u out there give me 1 month 2 change frm bad to gd hao ma...cos if i dun change i rather end my live lor ya...so ppl if u c me smoke just take away my cigg if u c my fire just take away....unless i give u all a very gd reason ya...cos she wont tok 2 me nw until next month...cos i ask her give me 1 month 2 change thn she will tok 2 me n she will consider giving me a chance....yea...it means tt i have hope again le...ya...haha...i m so happy la can...i really hope tt yesterday time can stop just 4 the both of us la....y cunt the time stop 4 me....i m willing 2 change cos e seek of her ya...MUST WAIT 4 ME K...i sure can change de ya....must wait 4 me k 1 month only u sure can de i oso sure can de ya....love u lots n love u always....miss u deeply....

joyce u must keep ur promiss k...u say le if i had change u will consider patch wif me rite k...i say give me 1 month i will sure change 4 e seek of u ya...i m sure we will sure patch bck de...i have faith in our coming relationship ya...very fast it will come de ya...joyce i love u deeply n u are my one n only...n my preciouse one...no one can replace u in my heart...now n next x...no one menas noone can replace it.....ya...must trust me ya...joyce all i need now is ur support ya...all i now need is u...not anything else ya...pls dun give up ya...i will nv LET U GO....cos i too love u le...GERRIE CHUA LOVE JOYCE LOH 1314.....3344....184.....wait 4 me ya dear...once i hold onto ur hand i promiss i will nv let it go again...n i hope u wont let it go oso ya...cos i really need u..

2007-04-12T04:35:00.000+08:00
2day had PFT...sian la...but 1 gd thing n 1 bad thingg....i shall say e bad thing first ba ya...haha...

i fail my running hahaha...i inten 2 fail tts y i walk all e way lor..lame rite i oso dunno y i lyk tis leh haix....even worst de is i still vomit n no energy la...wtf...

i saw HER haha...damn happy aft sawing her la i oso dunno y de leh...actually i got no mood de lor but aft saawing her my mood lyk damn gd la...hahaha...i oso dunno y leh...

tmw PFT again but is 5 station so ok la...hope 2 c her again ya...haiz...

wat happen 2 my mummy ah tis few days lyk mood not gd leh...lyk dun feel lyk toking leh...haiz...everyone around me is changing how abt me...m i changing too...hu can tel me whether i m changing anot haiz....if got change is change frm bad 2 worst or frm worst 2 bad????is which 1 sia...haiz...evryone is lyk the mood something wrong de leh haiz...lyk tis lor i oso cunt do anything...all i can do is 2 try 2 cheer them up lor haiz i ownself oso dunnoo...haiz...sadering sia....haiz...

joyce do u noe tt i very happy tt i saw u 2day b4 i ran...but i alr set my mind tt i wan fail le unless u open ur mouth n ask me run i will run lor...but i been waiting n waiting but i nv hear ur voice haiz...my heart is crying again do u noe tt...dun treat me lyk tis hao ma i BEG u...haiz...joyce come bck 2 me i been wishing u tt u can come bck 2 me u noe ma...I WAN BE YOUR BOY 4EVER HAO MA...pls..dun throw away tis little boy hao ma....pls joyce...I LOVE YOU 4EVER....

2007-04-10T13:03:00.001+08:00
sIaN sia...haiz...the taiji is settle but it seems lyk he wan find taiji wif us again leh...wa lao eh very lame lor...i find myself lyk gg bck 2 last x lyk tis lor...now all i m thinking is HER...no x for other thing ah...ppl out there...next x got taiji dun come n tel me unless is regarding HER n my gan family de k...if not dun tel me i sure 100% wont help be ya...i now wan keep trouble free liao le...

MeI mEi wat had happen sia can tel me ma....why u dun wan tok 2 me why u wan ingore me siaa...

e both galzs if u wan bu suang wif me cos first i m late n thn aft tt i came 4 awhile thn i say i wan go le...n u say tt i bluff u all rite...i can tel u la tt day i got taiji thn aft tt i m injured k i nv bluff lor if u alll dun wan believe me rite thn tts ur taiji i dun wan care so much....n 4 ur info i nv lyk e both of u B4 k...stopp tellingg ppll tt u all have rejected me k...i say i lyk u cos i dun wan u all 2 b sad k...i dun lyk or love u guys...i only lyk no is love 1 person only la k so stop dreaming ba ya...listen e last x i say I DUN LYK OR LOVE U....i only love 1 person tt is SHE k...tts it...

GERRIE only love JOYCE dun love other ppl k...so if gals wan jio me but i dun lyk them stop forcing me 2 say tt i lyk u k...is very hard 4 me 2 say it out de u noe ma...cos in my heart only got 1 gal tt is JOYCE k...so leave me n her alone...hao ma...all i m waiting n wishing is we 2 patch k tts it....

2007-04-10T04:13:00.000+08:00

2day nv go scl cos i scare i kanna caught...sian lor lyk tis tmw i oso dunno how le la haix...think i will hack care lor n just go scl lyk tis lor...haix...how ah i oso dunno leh...let me tel u all wat had happen at tt fucking friday....settle daiji thn aft tt went 2 bugis meet my fren...but i oso dunno y leh lyk dun feel lyk gg out wif them lyk tis leh...so i went there just lyk a few min only thn i went off le...wat de fuck la can haix....so many things happen 2 me la...yesterday was just caught by police la i thought only scranning only lor in dee end leh went 2 police station la..so suai la...was caught wat u noe...haiz cunt say here...thn aft tt nvm leh..thn went 2 buy cigg thn now left afew sticks only lor wa i was lyk wat de hell...haiz....i been thinking should i start 2 learnt how 2 PG...n alot of thing la...sian..hu can tel me wat i should do leh...i scare SHE will be unhappy...k now i dare 2 say out tt if anyone bully my mei or hu ever riter i wont use anything exceept my hand n mouth but if hu ever bully until HER rite i will sure use something tt no 1 can stop me frm doing de even if u wan cal police come n catch me come ba...i will sur emake ur life very wat de dun try me i tell u....STOP BULLING MY SIDE DE REN LE IS NOT FUN I CAN TEL U....

joyce u wan me wait until whn we alr break 4 6 month le leh...u still dun wan forgive me ah...i stil love u alot u noe ma if i dun love u rite thn i wont care wat u say on tt fucking friday le rite..if i dun love u anymore thn i wotn listen 2 u le rite...joyce all i wan is u give me 1 last chance hao ma....ALL I WAN IS U....joyce come bck 2 me hao ma nth really can change my love for you....i been waiting n i will con 2 wait 4 the day 2 come ture tt is u come bck 2 my side n love n care for me...tts it....GERRIE CHUA LOVE JOYCE LOH FOREVER

2007-04-02T16:18:00.001+08:00
2day meet her thn ask her something...thn wdf la got N level thn cnnt have my phone wif me but i have it....thn i ask her 2 help me keep my phone thn she help me keep but a while only lor...ya so nth la thn aft tt i go meet her..so miss n worry abt her la cos she was injured...wat de fuck dunno tt teacher got heart de ma still wan her 2 go dance lor wat de fuck ask her go hell la stupid teacher ass hole sia...lyk tis treat HER u wan her life isit u wan u come n take my first la thn u go n her la hor fuck ur mother ass hole...thn aft tt i go n meet them at playground haha..thn aft tt went 2 daddy hse n use his com...I REALLY MISS U LOTS DO U NOE TT...

xin yu y u dun wan tok 2 me...why...wat have i done 2 make u angry wif me haiz...

JOYCE i miss u u noe ma n i really love u alot...all i wish n waiting 4 is PATCH...only...u can hint me no need 2 tel me de la or ask ppl 2 tel me i dun mind me opening my mouth n ask again lor....joyce i really NEED U bck into my life...all i wan n love is JOYCE LOH...

2007-03-28T04:05:00.000+08:00
now in lab gg 2 do my n level couse work le haiz...yesterday was so mood swing la...cos of someone not HER la is other ppl...ya...so dun go n ask her cos she wont noe de ya only me noe haha...i m k now le...should i put TATTOO....SHE dun let me put leh so i think i wont put lor cos i scare she dun lyk it ya...2day we saw each other alot of time thn i very happy...haha...

tis morning actually i will late de leh but i nv kanna book lor haha u noe y cos i ran away haha...so i was save haha...went to eat beadfast tis morning haha..prawn noodles haha...not nice de lor...ppl listen dun go tt store n eat tt 1 near the ntuc de ya...thn recess i went 2 find my nu yer n mei thn tt stupid prefect ah kpkb lor...still wan shout at me still say wat i shout at him first....ask him dun tok cock la hor wan book me book la...lyk i will scare lyk tis bring me 2 DM la IF U DARE....knnbccb...k i wan start my n level le bye everyone.....

~~joyce do u noe i been seeing u tis few day n i was so happy n i really hope tt i can see u everyday n every min n can u come bck 2 me i really need u alot sia...~~

2007-03-26T04:27:00.000+08:00
hi...here 2 post....i dunno wat happen between me n my xin yu mei lor...haix she is lyk dun wan tok 2 me n alot la...haix...wat should i do sia...ask her she oso dun wan tel me wat had happen lor...i m sick again haix....having a bad cough n flu sia sadering.....

Gd job gals...they won a campion shield....n gold...haha....u all did ur best le ya...GD JOB GALS....haha was so happy 4 them n kai ping la haha...find 1 day i free i treat u all k...haha...think tt it le la ya bye...

~~joyce u really have no feeling 4 me le ma...REALLY MA..???!!!haix...i miss u alot do u noe tt...JOYCE i miss u alot n i LOVE u alot....muack.........~~

2007-03-20T04:47:00.000+08:00
may i noe wat e fuck is happening to my life...i been lost since i meet her....haix...i oso dunno leh...since she think i very fan rite thn i think should just leave her alone ba...she got anything happen thn come n tel me ba..i will sure go down n help no matter wat time n wat place....haix....do u noe tt i been waiting 4 u 2 jio me....haha...no la just kidding la...

MY BLOG IS DEAD....

2007-03-06T08:44:00.000+08:00
wat should i do can anyone tel me....haix...

2007-03-05T19:07:00.000+08:00
I MISS HER DAMN LOTS LA CAN.....I LOVE YOU LOTS N IS 4EVER...

520 1314....
N
3344...

2007-03-05T19:05:00.000+08:00
haix...few days nv update le...i m so depress la....dunno wat e fuck is happening 2 me la...i was lyk so mood swing la haix...tis kind of thing started since 9 oct 2006....n it will nv change until e day come ba...n i hope it happen soon...ya....i been missing her so much la....sian...how...i love her until i cunt study leh...how sia...die la lyk tis....my n so fail de lor...alr gg 2 fail 2 sub le leh...how...if tis con i will sure die de lor...n hor if she really dun wan come bck 2 me n give me a last chance hor my studies n my life sure GONE CASE de lor...haix...mixx xin yu mei n her lots.....

joyce can u give me 1 last chance...i really love u alot love u until i can die ah..cunt u just give me 1 last chance...haix...joyce i m so sry tt ur velen day gife i havent give cos i m still learning ya..I M SO SRY....i will give u asap de ya...i love u.....gerrie chua love joyce loh 4ever n ever...520 1314....n 3344....

2007-02-24T07:52:00.000+08:00

wahaha...every long nv post blog le hor..haha...was busy tis few day ya...n somemore com down....k let me tel u wat had happen.....

1. wdf la she smaller thn me still dare to scold me ah....ass hole....u think u hu...need to shout at me de ma u say i give u att but did i give u att anot ma...u better hear properly hor thn shout at ppl hor u think i hao qi fu ah huh....u where not happy come n look 4 me la...i stand there and wait 4 u w/o shaking my whole body la hor....FUCKER...i damn piss off by u la...

2. i n xin yu mei hao hui le hahaha....she cal me KOR yesterday leh...n is lyk she so long nv cal me le lor abt 5-6 mouth le leh...thn she yesterday cal me KOR leh...haha....was so happy la....if she can everyday cal me kor hor i tel u i will b damn happy la....n i hope tt u can keep ur promiss n i hope tt u wont forget wat u had promiss me ya...mei i miss u alot...do u noe tt...k i can say tt i miss joyce more thn u la but i still got miss u ya...sign off by love u de kor gerrie....

joyce do u noe tt i been waitting 4 u n i m every tired of my whole family le...since u left me alone in tis world rite...i been very very lonely do u noe tt....i alr said i can give up the WHOLE WORLD just cos of u...all i wan is u joyce loh come bck to gerrie chua life only....my another half of my life is at ur side n i dun wish u returning it bck to me cos i wan de is u come bck 2 me tts all i can cos of u give up on whole life le thn wats more i cunt give up just 4 u....haix...u everyday see me laugh here laugh there u think i very happy rite i can tel u tt i m very hurt n depress do u noe tt....i m not happy at all whn can i b real happy again...joyce whn can u make me happy again WHEN....haix....*cry*...

2007-02-19T12:42:00.000+08:00

happy new year.....wahaha

so sian la..even though got red packet take but oso very sian....haix...
u noe wat someone wan give up on me u noe ma...wdf...i oso nv do anythign wrong n she just tel ppl tt she wan give up on me...haix thn i msg her she dun wan reply thn wat she wan me to do sia...sian....la....ass hole lor....haix....thn i think i n her wont b together de la...haix....sua....friday ton actually not ton is rin away frm hm ya...me n shereen ton lor at sng mac....sian la....we smoke thn we eat thn we laugh thn we tok....aft tt we SLP haha...kidding...haix...dunno la i oso dunno wat 2 do liao la if she really wan give up on me thn let it b ba...i dun wan force her le la...ya....haix....forget it...if i m real handsome thn will got gal come n jio 1 la...so i shall just wait ba ya...hope tt i can find my real happiness ya...i hope tt SHE can have her real happiness oso...even though i still love her does not mean tt i must have her rite bside me rite...haix...thn i shall love her sliently ba..ya.....babay i'm sorry...n i can tel u tt i still love you n i wont stress u anymore ya...i shall let it b ba...

joyce do u think tt i have give up on u???!!!i can tel u tt i still LOVE you alot k....but i just dun wan u 2 b stress abt tis kind of stupid thing ya...all i ask is tt u can stay happy 4ever ya....joyce i love you...u say tt u hope tt i can find my another half asap...but have u thought tt if 1day i really i really found my another half will i b happy...tts y i told u tt my another half is u joyce loh.....ya tts all i wan 2 let u noe all i wan is u n i love you n i miss u deeply in my heart......

2007-02-19T12:01:00.001+08:00
do u really wan give up on me haix....wat is the pro man....u wan give up e reason is cos i cunt pamperd u rite...pls la i only pamperd my stead only lor unless u r my stead la thn i will pamperd u...dunno u la if u think tt u wan give up rite tis show tt u dun really love me as a stead cos u can cos of tis wan give up on me....haix...watever la i will still respect ur choose la...k...tts it...haix...sua...sad..

2007-02-15T03:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CRYSTAL GRANDDAUGHTER YA.....
HAPPY VALENTINE DAY.....
first x ppl give me present leh...haha...shall post ltr...feeling is mix...i oso dunno...at first damn happy thn aft tt haix i oso dunno leh..haix....

STRESS NOW SIA....HOPE TT MY MEI CAN HELP ME HAIX....

~~JOYCE I WAN U BCK...MAY I....HAIX...I OSO DUNNO LEH..MAYB REALLY LOR NO JOYCE NO LIFE LOR YA..HAIX...BEEN MISSING U LOTS DO U NOE TT HAIX....JOYCE I LOVE YOU N I MISS YOU ALOT DO U NOE TT....~~

2007-02-13T08:32:00.001+08:00
wahaha....i take bck my phone le yea....all of u can contact me le yea...wahaha....she read my letter leh...i m so happy man...wahaha....thnks 2 my smallest lan...haha...thnks alot ya....

wat de fuck tis morning whn we r abt 2 go bck 2 class tt time....ms lim scold her lor....wdf sia...she think she hu only a vp only lor oso no need 2 scold them rite.....they r just doing thier duty only wat...oso is mr lian ask them do de rite ass hole sia.....wa damn piss off la...k wan scold oso no need 2 scold them in front of so many ppl rite....wat if i scold ms lim in fornt of so many students she will lyk it ma...she will sure no face de rite....ass hole sia....wa...hope tt she wont b so angry lor thn at least i can see some smile on her face ya.......

~~joyce i really hope tt u can give me 1 last chance ya....all i wan u 2 nor is i m always here 4 u n i will nv leave u alone in tis world i promiss.....i m doing all tis is cos I LOVE YOU~~

2007-02-12T13:03:00.001+08:00
my hp still havent take bck...sian sia...now i wan noe hu e fuck is the ahem....now i tel u l;a hor...u got wat rite 2 say me...i got life or no life is not ur busniess rite....i miss or dun miss her oso not ur dai ji rite....u r not my hu...u r not my mei or wat rite....or even worst my stead.....u got wat de fuck rite 2 come n say me....ass hole.....
tis few days not free sia....got 2 buy ny shirt sian lor....dunno wanna buy haix....thn hope tt i 2day can take bck my hp....com DOWN....fuck lor...since she left me all e ass hole thing is coming aft me lor....n i scare tt all e ass hole thing will go 2 her...wan all come 2 me leave her alone can le.....ya....i can do watever i can 2 PROTECT HER....n not only her i will protect all my gan family i will oso....but will protect her more la ya....

i dun care wat ppl say abt me all but i just wan 2 let u noe tt i love u....n i wont miss ppl more thn u de....i have nv miss ppl miss until lyk tt do u noe....DO U NOE HOW IMPORTANT U ARE 2 ME??!!!all i noe is I M CARZY OVER JOYCE.....

2007-02-05T15:02:00.001+08:00
yesterday was a very tired but happy day.....happy cos she tok 2 me thn whn she wanna leave le rite she say bye 2 me haha....damn happy la....thnks 2 my mummy man...haha....thn 2day morning went 2 market 2 buy food 2 eat de but no time liao le so nv buy lor....thn she n her fren got go wif us ya....thn she give me sweet leh....haha....damn happy man....haha....thn most of my teacher nv coem class cos they have 2 go 4 sec 3 camp.....haha...fun....miss her man....she went 4 sec3 camp le haix....will b missing her 4 3days haix....nvm....aft 3 day she will b bck le haha....yea....ya....nth 2 say le la...ya....hope me n her can have a better guan xi ya.....

joyce i really hope tt u can b my stead again...i really miss u do u noe tt...i really hope tt sok yen can b ur mother in law again all of us really hope tt we can b together again n all of us hope tt u can find me bck...i really need u...only me hu cunt live w/o u....i really LOVE YOU ALOT....JOYCE I LOVE YOU....

2007-02-03T14:37:00.001+08:00
didnt post 4 afew days le...thn yesterday de yesterday damn happy lor cos she tok 2 me haha....but yesterday at first was happy cos i saw her at 108 thn i was lyk damn happy la but aft tt i not happy le cos i noe tt something bad will happen 2 me le...haix....i was lyk wa siao liao la....thn went 2 cycle around alj lor thn lyk tis lor...haix....sian...i really hate single lif n i wish 2 stead wif her again but i noe is impossible cos she has alr turn bck 2 straight le.....i hate myself......arghhhhh.....

joyce i really wish tt u can come bck 2 me....i really wish 2 hold ur hand n walk finish my life path n i really wish tt we can hold hand n go though all diff n easy path n happy n unhappy path...joyce can u let me once agaon hold ur hand n walk...joyce will u do n i really dun have new target n i nv use u as a excuise....i really love u alot n i really mean alot....JOYCE I LOVE YOU....i been regreting do u noe tt...i really hope n wish tt we can b together again....can u patch wif me pls....I REALLY MISS YOU DEEPLY...my love 4 u still havent fade..

2007-02-01T01:10:00.000+08:00
I M DAMN SAD NOW......DUN FEEL LYK TOKING 2DAY....BUT MAYB LTR WILL STILL TOK DE LA...haix.....morning i came into e scl aft everything settle down....rui jing told me tt she GOT STEAD LEH....WTF.....thn i my mood was spoiled by tis kind of thing...WTF...la.....ltr thn post le bye....

2007-01-31T04:21:00.000+08:00
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MY HANDPHONE KANNA CON LE LA......ARGHHHH hope tt my dad can faster go n take bck my HP thn return it bck 2 me......i can live w/o hp but i cunt live w/o you....u should noe i m referring 2 hu rite......shall end here le ya.....

joyce can i have you bck pls...i can do watever u dun lyk de just wan u 2 give me a chance...i will wait 4 u 2 coem bck de....joyce i m still waiting 4 u 2 come bck.. i love u alot n i miss deeply.....can u just give me 1 last n only chance....PLS

2007-01-30T04:23:00.000+08:00
haix sian la....i m sick again....n tis x worst lor...wtf...sian...thn nv go scl 2day stay at hm....haha...but i miss someone in scl leh but i cunt go scl thn how....sian lor...haha...wondering hows crystal le...dunno she got go scl ma...haix....i alr 3 day nv see until her le i been missing her day n nite but do she noe...she dunno....she oso dun wan bother abt me lor...if she wan bother abt me rite u wan i sick go scl oso no pro arh...i will sure go de....she say i wan u stay at hm i will sure stay de lor....but now is she dun even wan c or tok 2 me arh.....how 2...haix...y cunt u'll return her bck 2 me...i dun ask 4 much i just ask tt she can come bck 2 me....i been regareting y should i let go of her....haix...all cos of me...i m sry...baby i am so sry....u should noe hu i m toking rite....haix..only she noe no one noe....

~~joyce can u just gie me a last chance 2 patch bck wif u...i been waiting 4 u do u noe tt....do u noe tt i love u alot...n i miss u deeply...joyce i wan u bck....i love you joyce...~~

2007-01-28T03:18:00.000+08:00
haix....i alr nv tok 2 e 5 of them 4 2-3 days le leh...should i contiune dun bother abt them....or should i go n lyk last x lyk tis....but still angry leh how sia....haix....dunno la....now my 2 baobei sick liao la...crystal n jasmine.....haix.....
crystal....u ok ma....ur flu n s.t k ma....must take care of urself k...u wan eat anything just tel ah gong k...ah gong go n buy n let u eat ya...faster get well k....drink more water ya...bath hot water ya....
jasmine....u tis naughty mei mei...sick dun wan go n c doctor haix....u k ma....haix....u wan eat anything tel kor kor k kor kor help u buy k...must take care hor...drink more water ya....must take care ya....haix....sad arh.....

~~hu can return joyce bck 2 me huh...i m regretting arghhh..joyce i wan u bck...~~

2007-01-25T11:50:00.000+08:00
i been sick since sunday....fever go up n down aft tt gone thn coem bck again dunno wats e pro wif me la....thn had a bad flu n cough really bad cough...lyk wan cough my lung or heart out....thn hor SOMEONE hor noe i cough think she noe i sick le thn she still dun wan come n tok or concern me leh....fine lor...i alr said i start everything first so we shall wait...if SHE really wanna forget abt me s a kor rite thn let it b ba....haix theres nth i can do...

scl was so suck la but only math lesson fun only...haha....cos we went 4 a tour...hope tmw oso can haha....thn went 108....everythign same but hor i damn angry wif the 2 of them la....saw me lyk saw glass lyk tis lor dun even bother 2 say hi 2 me la...dun wan cal me nvm dun even bother 2 say hi....thn they say they lazy n tired....wa if it is kp they rite they will sure run there n say hi no matter how tired they are they will RUN there lor...haix...fine la i m too disappointed in them le la mayb can say jealous ba dunno la hack care la....aiya last x oso lyk tis i shut my mouth up but now i cnnt take it le la....i so tern them in the end wat i get NTH...wat de fuck...everyone is treating me lyk tis la.....why u all wan treat me lyk tis WHY.....fuck la i treat the 5 of u not gd meh...WHY MUST U ALL TREAT ME LYK TIS.....arghhh....suar la....i m too disappointed in u all le...haix...wat should i do....nb sia...

~~joyce can i ask u 4 patch n u agree can ma....i alr cunt take it by myself le la...i really need u~~

2007-01-23T04:40:00.000+08:00
yesterday until now still having fever sia....frm 37.8 -39.1.....wa lao eh....now better....38.6....must tc liao le dun have joyce 2 take care of me le so i have 2 take care of myself but i hope i noe how 2 tc of myself ba.....hope joyce can come bck 2 my sdie......

~~joyce can u give me 1 more chance...i really wanna u bck can ma...pls...n i really love u alot u noe ma...miss u alot leh...haix....~~

2007-01-21T20:11:00.000+08:00
bck frm chiong le....k let me tel u wat i do.....
went 2 disco thn aft tt eat thai food.....wa lao eh is lyk damn hot lor.....thn i eat afew mouth only lor....thn aft tt i damn hungry....thn aft tt i drink some funny drink only afew mouth thn i gave sew long drink cos she need a lot of drink....thn aft tt drink 2 cup 2 tiger beer only thn aft tt we drink back label.....wa i drink 35 plus of glasses of tt lor.....thn i not drunk lor.....so gd rite....but hor i vomite 3 times.....is lyk wat the fuck la.....thn thn aft tt drink the thai tom yam soup....wa fuck la so hot lor thn i drink only afew mouth oso lor.....wa.....thn aft tt went 2 sew long hse n stay overnite.....ya tts it......2day de chiong quite ok la.....ya....tts it......

~~4 bao bei i miss u all leh.....hope u all enjoy de camp ya...~~

2007-01-20T06:12:00.000+08:00
sian arh....2day so early come hm thn aft tt i gg out 2 meet my "aunty"haha...veyr sian lor i have no stead....really wish 4 a gal 2 jio me...haha...lame lor....

bao bei mei mei arh(pl).....sian lor....e 4 of u gg camp thn i lonely de at hm sigh sigh....hahaha....hope u all will have fun during e camp ya....haha....must take care of yourself k....if kai ping bully anyone of u tel me k....haha....hope u all will enjoy ya......haha.....
~~how pl can u tel kor wat 2 do...i m so confuess now n so troubled la even though u can c me laugh but i m not truly happy deep insid emy broken heart...do u noe tt....~~

do u really dun wish 2 patch or have another try wif me...do u really wish tt i can let u go....if its true thn u tel me wat u wan me 2 do but i dunno i can make it anot but i hope i can woo u bck...tts all i ask frm u....

2007-01-19T11:35:00.000+08:00
wa....2day feel so funny lor....haix....dunno y leh....feel so dead worry 4 my baobei granddaughter la....haix.....u ok ma.....i really wish tt u can tel me wat happen 2 u ma....haix...thn aft tt feel so troubled lor....is lyk wat de la...i really dunno wat 2 do n how 2 handle it lor...how HOW ARH.....die le la if lyk tis hor i sure die de la.....haix can u tel me wat happen haix....damn worry 4 u can.....haix...dunno wat 2 say or do leh....haix....lyk tis lor....haix...dun post le if not hor....haix....baobei mei mei (pl)....how can tel kor kor wat 2 do ma....arh.....

~~joyce can u tel me wat u wan me 2 do thn u will tok or even mix wif me...i really love you alot sia~~

2007-01-18T04:08:00.000+08:00
now in scl wish tt can faster dismiss...cos i too sian liao le....haix.....yesterday nite shili was lyk laughing e whole nite la.....she start laughing whn she tok 2 her gan didi thn aft tt she hang up wif her le rite....she called me n we tok thn tok tok tok tok tok thn suddenly she laugh laugh laugh laugh....thn i oso laugh laugh laugh hahaha...was lyk kind of funny la....haha....aft tt my ping ling cal me thn she oso join in e fun lor.....the three of us crap all e way till we hang up e phone...haha....thn 2day was punish by mr lian la....wat de....i was late 4 his class cos of some reason la.....thn aft tt i come up e clss le rite he ask me 2 do pump 40 thn aft tt my lip stard thn add another 50 pump le so totoal is 90 pump 90 PUMPS leh...do until i no energy le lor...haha.....nvm la....aft tt i need 2 go n find jas le need 2 ask her something ya.....haix....was kind of sad 2day lor....4 some reason la....haix....hope she will noe thn she can comfort me....but too bad she is not my stead anymore le...so haix....u should understand le rite...haix......

~~joyce can u patch bck wif me.....i really need u.....2 comfort,lead,guide and support me....all i just need is ur love dun u noe tt....I LOVE YOU~~

2007-01-17T11:44:00.000+08:00
i m so piss off by u la.....is lyk wat de fuck.....yesterday hor....wa i was so piss off by the both of them la...they think they wat sia got wat rite 2 say me.....haix alot arh....haix.....2day is lyk wat i saw e person i love e most de hor saw alot of time u noe....was lyk so happy la haha....thn hor waned 2 tok 2 my granddaughter de but hor she went off le dun even have e time 2 tok 2 her lor....wat de la....haix.....
~~do i stand a chnace 2 patch bck wif her?????i hope i have cos i really love her alot....cunt she just give me a chance.....i love you deeply....~~

2007-01-14T06:27:00.000+08:00
is over everythign is over....so stop asking me abt my relationship.......i dun wish 2 cry again........a bunk should not cry de so stop making me cry.....even though i no ei m a useless bunk la but u all oso no need 2 make me cry de rite.....keep on asking me y we break....how i noe y sh ewan break wif me arh ......mayb co si m useless ba.........tts de end of our relationship k joyce break wif gerrie chua le k.....so dun ask anymore......frm 2day on i m not gg 2 act happy le....just 2 make her think tt i m happy but i m not I HAD ENOUGH OF EVERYTHING........i been waiting 4 her 2 come bck...now u telme tt she hate me....wat worng have i done 2 make u hate me.....can u just tel me........y....WHY WHY WHY....y ohters can patch bck wif their love ones y cunt i.....y cunt we b together.....y....do u really dun love me anymore....or u r trying 2 make ursevles dun love me n love others.....HUH WHICH 1.......y....y cunt u give me 1 last chance....i can change just 4 ur seek k........i dun give a damn wat others will c me or say abt me alli just need is u hoe u c me n say me.........joyce i really love u alor arh.....
all i ask frm u is ur love and ur turst....n i really regareted...i been waiting 4 my gal 2 come bck 2 me...gal whn can u come bck 2 me n give me a chnce 2 show u my ture love 4 u....all i just need now is not money is not my studies all i nees is U,joyce loh 2 come bck 2 me tt all i ask frm u n my wish will come ture....i dun need anything....all i noe now is tt i REALLY LOVE YOU ALOT n I REALLY CUNT LIVE W/O YOU.....

2007-01-14T04:42:00.000+08:00
i feeling very damn hurt now.....do u really have stead.....or u r just trying 2 make me give up on u only nia.....i tel u la my love 4 u havent fade away k...i still love u alot k....joyce can u tel me y u wn bk wif me since u noe tt i love u so much thn y do u still wan bk wif me......w/o u in my life i found out tt my life is so empty n meaningless lor....last x wif u around my life is full of joy n laughter now my life is all those hurt n sorrows......do u wan me 2 knee down infornt of u thn u will patch bck wif me isit......u dun lyk de thing i alr nv do le leh wat u lyk me 2 do i alr do it le...if theres anything u not happy wif me u tel me i can change de all i just is 1 more chance 2 be love by u....tt is PATCH.....can i n may i......yesterday cried 4 1h plus n tis is e second x tt i m so sad n hurt thn i will cry until so wat de lor.....both x oso cos of u no ohter gals le......i really only love joyce loh n not jeryn fok rui wen.........i really dun lyk tt fucker....dun say lyk arh i love oso dun love her......cos i only love u....one n only gak in my heart rite now.......no 1 can replace ur place in my deep broken heart.......JOYCE I LOVE U 4EVER...........2321 hope tt it will b together again.....0306....together le hua hope tt it will last long is in damn long.......love her always n forever.....

2007-01-13T10:30:00.000+08:00
do you noe tt i m still waiting 4 u....n i can swear tt my LOVE for u havent fade n it will nv fade away....can u tel me y u dun wan patch wif me....all i wish is tt u patch wif me.....i dun wan other thing le....promiss u tt i will listen 2 u n i wont lie or hid anything 2 u even cnnt say i will oso tel u....cna u just give me 1 last chance...i really need u alot u noe ma...i really cunt live w/o u....w/o u in my life is so meaningless lor.......joyce can u patch bck wif me i really love u alot n i miss u alot u noe ma....everytime c u lyk tis hor it hurts me lots u noe ma....n i m very worry abt u....dun u noe tt....I LOVE U N I MISS U......

~~all i ask frm GOD is tt joyce can patch bck wif me tts all i ask 4~~

2007-01-12T12:47:00.000+08:00

2day dunno wat de fuck happen la...mood swing until very wat leh....thn hor which stuipd person hor bully my grand daughter leh...wan die arh huh.....make her angry 4 wat sia...wat de fuck....haix....totally no mood now la....someone ask me 2 shut up leh....wa lao i hate it man.....ASK ME SHUT UP LEH......haix.....k lor thn i shall not tok 2 tt person le lor since u wan me shut up thn i shall SHUT UP k....happy....2day lyk luo tang ji lyk tis thn still go n play basketball.....somemore is big rain lor....haha....lame rite thn eat ice cream....sian la...my life...hate my life sia...haix.....<s>can u just give me 1 last chance pls i really need u in my life lor...i really cunt dare 2 leave u joyce i love u

~~my life w/o u is so meaningless~~

2007-01-10T07:57:00.000+08:00

since u say tt u dun understand me y dun u try 2 understand me leh....y dun u open up ur mouth n ask me????since u dun wan 2 ask me or try 2 tok 2 me thn i can tel u u will 4EVER wont noe wat i m thinking n wat is happen 2 me de k....u think shili they all no need tok 2 me thn she will noe everything meh....she oso make a effort 2 tok 2 me n ask me staff de ma rite so take e step ba....i wont take e step out anymore le...tts it...k

~~do u noe tt i been waiting 4 u~~

2007-01-10T07:22:00.000+08:00

i hate every month de 9.....i really hate it...nth gd will happen 2 me de....it will only make me feel sad n feel lyk giving up my life only lor.....is not her fault is my fault.....but i noe how important u r 2 me le lor n i noe it long x ago k not tt we r not together thn i noe k....i been waiting 4 u do u noe tt.....i dun really care whether u will hurt me 1 more time anot but all i noe is i wan u bck....tts it.....can u give me 1 more chance...n tis x round i wan put it in low profile....i dun wan u 2 get upset cos cos of relationship or other thing le....i promiss tt i will give u happiness de....can u give me 1 last chance pls....i really need u n i really love u alot.....

~~i really cunt live w/o u in my life~~

2007-01-09T04:23:00.000+08:00

wat iis happening 2 me 2day.....y even god oso dun wan help me....is lyk wat de fuck la.....i m sry tt ignore you all....i just dun wish 2 tok......cos something damn bad happen 2 me 2day......I HATE GERRIE CHUA SI WEI.......he make his xstead suffer thn now come n blame himself oso no use le cos she wont PATCH bck anymore......wat de fuck....so wat 4 live in tis world w/o her.....WAT DE POINT......

2007-01-07T05:31:00.000+08:00

cos of me thn u will bcome lonely de lor....I M SO SRY.....do u noe how hurt i m now n how i feel now.....let me tel u i feel so hurt rite now....i m rite bside u...i really miss u alot u noe ma...n i love u....i m sry 4 making once again feel so lonely.....I M SRY.....i feel so hurt rite inside my heart do u noe tt....not only u feel lonely me too.....haix.....n feel so meaningless in my life since aft u had left me alone in tis world....haix.....i love u.....muack......

2007-01-07T03:14:00.000+08:00

3 jan
was all our first day of scl.....i dun inten 2 go bck scl de leh but hor....haix.....in de end i went bck scl haha.....nth much happen la.....i nv get caught 4....haha...was so happy la....so ya lesson was boring...boring until hor i go n msg ppl haha....lame.....
4 jan
everything same....had my height n weight....grow taller by 1cm.....grow fater le...saddering sia...haix :( thn aft scl go up hall c e sec1 pals dance....very nice but hor whn i saw jas dance tt x hor i was lyk laughing lyk hell la...so funny..haha.....thn aft tt i went 4 e cca tok.....very fast end liao lei i oso dunno y leh....haha....aft tt went 2 walk pass e sec 1 classes....happy at first but aft tt my mood swing lyk hell.....cos she tok me 1 sentence tt is.......DUN MSG ME ANYMORE.....i dunno wat wrong i done 2 make her so angry abt me leh...thn i was lyk totally no mood 2 go n meet my 2 jie liao lor....haix....was saddering tt day.....thn went 2 meet thm tt x my phone nearly lost...i mean real LOST.....i was lyk so fuck up la..so i faster ran bck n look 4 it thnk god tt my phone was there...haha...if not arh i tel u i will cry arh.....haha....
5 jan
scl was so boring.....do e stupid mess pe hor....do jumping jack do until i so piss off wif them la....we did abt 8-9 set of 30 leh.....thni think she not feeling well wanna go n concern her oso cnnt cos she wont ans me de n i dun dare oso i oso dunno y leh.....thn my mood half gone leh just by cing her lyk tis feel so heart pain.....haix.......thn b4 gg 2 e mr lim yan hock tt tok rite went 2 hall....thn she was there sitting glad tt no 1 go n distube her while she was resting.....haha.....but she still lyk stomach pain lyk tis leh....haix....sry la i dare not go n ask u myself....i scare u will angry n walk off while u r still in pain...so i nv go n ask u...u ask me not 2 msg u so i nv.....haix....thn aft tt p.l came 2 me n complain abt 1 sec1 boy make her so piss off la....thn b4 i go i wanna go n ask tt boy 2 sit down de but hor tt p.l lor pull my hand n dun let me go dunno wat she is doing la siao 1 leh she.....haha...thn went 2 esther n told esther.....ya....tt ah lim tok was so boring....n my life w/o was so meaningless....haix...sadering sia.....

2006-12-30T07:24:00.000+08:00

everyone found their lover bck HOW ABT ME......arghhhh....i
hate my life....CAN U ALL STOP USING JOYCE....2 GET WAT U ALL WAN FRM
ME.....JUST STOP BOTHERING JOYCE K....JUST LEAVE HER ALONE....how i wish i can
get joyce bck.....n lyk others patch wif their x n have a happy happering...Y
CUNT I......arhhhhhhhh......i hate my life arh.......
Y

2006-12-30T07:14:00.000+08:00

haha i very bad hor...come bck le nv share wif u 'll wat happen over ther hor...k i shall share now ya.....
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13dec
went 2 airport abt 12 plus i reach there le wif ya lan cos i tp her there ma ya...so gd of me rite haha...jk...thn 2plus there come le...thn check in...wait 4 x come b cook thn we go inside le lor...ya....at plane i n ruth n yan ling...sit 2gether...thn we eat 2 service u noe ma is lyk so funny la can...haha....miss those time we were 2gether sia haha.....thn reach cambodia le...wa i hate tt side e airport sia...dunno tt 1 is a airport or just a place 2 have peace sia...haix...nvm...thn we sit a van to e hotel...on e way there saw alot of things arh...is an eye opener 4 me ya....tt means singapore cunt do n c de there side all can c lor...ya haha....i love my room but aft tt ms wong they say they wan us 2 change room wif thm thn i dun lyk their room cos smaller thn our room leh...thn aiya nvm la.....got bath tub haha...
14dec
wake up abt 6plus thn went 2 710 4 morning devotion....thn went down 4 breadfast....thn off we go 2 e first place tt is WIDOW ISLAND......we sit van n boat there...ya....saw something more intersting sia....toilet no door no flus no roof top de le is lyk open space thn only a cloth cover e side only lor,cow so skinney....i thought its was a goat le whn i saw e cow bck view tt x....wa so funny sia....thn went to tour around the village...e fish pond hor...cnnt c until e fish e leh u noe y ....cos e water was so dirty until i c only those dirty staff n no fish....haha...thn went to e wheat farm....k la nice view ya....can let ppl have a peacefull mind 2 think of wat they wan think lor ya...thn lunch time...u can saw e kid run hm n take their bowl n spone n run bck 2 e meeting point de lor....they will line up n wait 4 thier turn 2 take rice n soup ONLY.....no dice de leh...thn they will pray together n eat together.....lyk 1 BIG FAMILY lor....was so touch by them la....aft eating they rest thn i fall aslp cos i too tired le so i dunno wat they do n happen ya....thn aft tt e time has come so we had 2 perform our story 2 them...my group de is water change into wine..in e bk of john....ya...thn teach thm e 10 words...while i was teaching thm they will lyk keep on trying 2 say it correctly la n they will teach us thier lauange oso lor....so funny la...i,queenie n ms esther was laughing though out the whole teaching la....thn those mdm who come n look de oso laugh lor...ya can imagine how funny itis le rite...haha...at first i was lyk so anti social la...dun tok dun smile....just stand down there n c lor...haix...thn went bck le...we go eat dinner....we eat pinapple rice n tom yam noodle ya...thn went bck 2 hotel le...aft everything liao rite...we went bck n bath....thn party x haha...all of them come 2 our(me,ruth,jun tian)room n have party...10of us soak our leg inside e hot water in e bath tub la.....ya thn aft tt went 2 slp le ya.....
15dec
7.30 leave hotel heading 2 widow island again.....reach there,some of the kid hold thier hands n start walking wif us....we start wif a dance;chicken dance......thn follow by story n teach them 10words....aft lunch......play a chinese game cal lao ing zua xiao zi......thn juntian was bitten by red ants....i oso kanna bitten....b4 tt we was lyk trying 2 carry e wheat lor i thought it would b very heavy but guess wat i was so light la....but cos i carry another type de got wood at my shoulder de so it is very pain la but i think it is very fun le haha.....ate french bread 4 lunch....the kid were every easy contentd....love thm n miss thm lor...haix.....went 2 their scl....wa was an eye opener 4 me lor...no fan n light de lor....wat de....if i were thm arh i will die there arh...haha....thn cut it short la hor....went 2 church n brough tthings 4 friends...thn e teacher there is lyk wat de fuck so fierce la....thn haix....off we go 2 eat dinner at lucky burger....thn we went bck 2 hotel there e lucky burher n eat aft eating went 2 bck 2 our room thn aft everything hao le we go 2 kp room n have PARTY....haha....
16dec
went 2 dumpsite.....wa i was lyk so scared tt i will vomit there la....thn whn we reach there le rite....e smell start 2 come le lor....thn i thought i could not ta han le but in e end i stop breathing frm my nose thn k liao thn aft tt we went 2 their work place thn we come out le rite got 1 small boy coem n lyk wanna me 2 carry him lyk tis lor....so i carried him....stillok la...i lyk e kids over there....s well s e widow island kids...haha.....thn aft tt we go le rite...we go n eat lunch aft tt shopping....dinner at boat cool rite...knew some gal at there n is 4th coy.....gals ya...haha....thn aft tt we went 2 their room n have a chat but nth 2 tok so we sit 4 awhile thn we go liao lor.....ya....
17dec
sit 3h bus 2 barai village....put down everything thn rest 4 abt 2h...aft tt went 2 1 of e village....thougth they will lyk widow island kids lyk tis but i was wrong....i dun tt side e kids...not contented n somemore its greedy....haix...dinner had steamboat...no rice de le n only got 1 dish....n noodle le no more liao le wa lao n is lyk so nan ci la can....thn aft tt went bck 2 village....wsh up wash half way black out.....kp,rui xiang n queenie was lyk scare of darkness like tis la....thn we were finding our touch light....thn e light come bck liao le....thn we faster walk bck haha.......thn aft everything ok liao rite....went 2 slp but b4 tt kai ping was playing wif rui xiang thn i very de sian so i join in.....aft tt i very tired liao le so i went bck 2 slp.....
18dec
went 2 another village 2 teach thm but i was hardly teach cos not feeling well.....thn somemore they dun wan learnt lor...thn 4get it lor....thn she say wat i should not have tis kind if att...but i was not feeling welll thn wat u wan me 2 do...having headach n slight fever....thn we went bck 2 e village n eat luch n rest...eat maggie noodle thn i went 2 slp while other playing....only me n kai ping slp....aft tt we wake up both of us fever...wat de....thn went to diff village oso the same....but i could not do anythign cos having fever....n headach...so i sit down there n watch lor....me kai ping juntian n sheila sick....wat de la...haix....we sat horse there....thn i n kai ping nearly fly out la....was so sacry la.....haha....fun man...sit go there n sit come bck haha....i was lyk e whole day not happy la cos my phone cunt send msg...i was so piss off e whole day la....thn was totally no mood.....haix....thn saw shooting star n alot of stars in e sky...nv saw b4 in singapore la....was lyk i cunt bear 2 leave there n went 2 slp....thn qweenie come n ask me go n slp cos i sick n dun get cold so i have 2 listen n go n slp.....wake up at 12plus cos of tt stupid gal clock la...wake me up...thn wait 4 fire fly 2 fly in but tt nite dun have le....so disappointed lor...wa so many bad things happening 2 me la...i hate my life man.....
19dec
wake up still got headach but fever gone le so k la.....waiting 4 e ppl tt work there de 2 come so tt we can go downstairs n worship together wif them....they were lyk so cheerful even though their life was worst thn us thn how abt me...my life was lyk better thn them dunno how many x la.....but i was not happy wif my life....wat e....haix...dunno oso la...thn aft e group photo tt we take at e village rite we sit bus went bck 2 phnom peuh...went 4 lunch thn off we go 4 shopping at e raser market.....brought alot of things arh.....thn we go bck hotel n put down our things thn we meet up n sit toot toot 2 go 2 e place where we ate our dinner....very cool lor i love e toot toot....haha...we were having fun there la....miss toot toot...haha..
20dec
woke up at 8plus...so gd rite...hahathn aft tt we went 2 central market n shop....brought alot of things....too many thing tt i wanna buy le cunt buy finish...cos time up le so we have 2 go le thn i lost my way out leh...was lyk wa lao eh....scary sia...thought i cunt walk out of there le lor....thn alot of rubbish come out of my mind la....thn finally i was able 2 walk out....thn aft tt explain 2 thm thn send ms goh n ms yang off....dunno where they went la...thn went bck 2 hotel n eat lunch....ate lucky burger again....thn aft tt went bck 2 central market 2 buy all we can lor....i buy until i not enough not enough money arh....haha...thn we have 2 rush 2 e airport le...thn whn we reach airport aft we had check in all our bags rite....we have 2 check in rite so we have 2 scan our body le thn hor.....i was shock le tt i got beep beep sound le...thn k lor nvm i let them scan my body....thn they found some mental staff wa i was lyk....ya...thn tt stupid da la pa hpr tok alot leh...i was alr very angry n piss off le lor...thn she down there tok so much la thn i shouted at her"can u just shut ur big ass mouth up anot"thn we just walk off left her lor hck care arh....thn we went shopping at e airport....i was so shock la....e cigg was so cheap n beer all is oso very cheap lor wa intend 2 buy but cnnt bring bck 2 singaporeso 4get it lor...ya...thnks quiting 4 treating us drink ya...fly bck 2 singapore le saw karen,jasmine n crystal....at e airport...went 2 east cost n eat satay bee hoon thn went 2 dad master hse thn aft tt i went hm cos i very tired....ya.....tts all i wan say....ya

2006-12-30T03:40:00.000+08:00

bck frm retreat.....i think tis year retreat is better thn last year ba i oso dunno leh....haix...i n grace have a better relationship le ya....n i dun think i have a better relationship wif lycia....is not i dun wan i had alr put down my pride lower le leh n tok or joke wif u le leh i even fed u cos u hungry....shi li they all oso le wat u did wan frm us y cunt u take a first step 2 mix wif us....y must we make e first step....y cunt b u....i dun hate u or dislyk u....all i do 2 u is u make it 2 happen de...de so if u wan a better relationship wif me thn u should go n think wat u had done n said 2 me.....u said tt u wont regart but now hu is e 1 hu is regarting....IS U NOT ME......k....

"those hu r not my friend.....stop caling me....n stop asking ppl tt i love 2 cal me 2 cal u bck just cos u wan find dai ji wif me....i wont ans ur cal n reply ur msg.....n I M NOT SCARE OF U.....tts it....stop finding trouble le la hor....i m not s free s u....k...."

2006-12-26T07:41:00.000+08:00

jie...can u stop making me jealous....i last x alr tel u le n we tok it out le but it coem bck again....whn e hell thn it will stop....if really lyk y dun u ignore me thn i think it will b better 4 e both of us lor....ya....i really cunt take hurt frm anyone anymore....i think i really need 2 find u come out n tok lor thn it will b better ya....i noe watever i do it will hurts u only watever she do thn wont la hor only she noe u de best....all of u have put me aside le...wat is tis....i hate it....I DAME FUCKING HATE IT LA CAN....jie why u all do this kind of thing 2 me......Y

2006-12-26T07:35:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS.........

yesterday went 2 church....thn aft tt went 2 tm wif kaiping n lan....thn buy everything hao le hor thn we went 2 meet jas they all......thn off we go 2 alex chalet....thn aroung 9plus jas they all have 2 go hm le so off they go lor ya....thn we still down there cos we tom there....we eat play n walk walk...haha...thn aft tt we go up 2 e room....play mj wif kaiping n lan n ho sister....FUN....so funny la can....thn aroung 1plus...cos kah ho have 2 go hm le so we oso have 2 leave his parents call us go hm thn we alr said wan ton nite liao ma so k lor i called my jie see where r they...thn aft c we can ton at their hse ma...in de end all say no.....haix thn k lor we go town lor.....we sit cab go but is ofc.....noe y...cos kah ho sister friend tp us go there la....thnks alot ya....haha....thn we walk walk walk......suddenly someone ask me whether they can spare on me ma i say no....thn aft tt kp walk pass they got ask but i think she nv ans so they spare lor...thn i lagh haha.....thn they ran n spare on me leh....haha.....thn lan oso laugh but she too small le so nv kanna....haha...fun man....thn aft tt we walk 2 ps...n eat mac....i eat they slp...but is awhile de la so make no diff la....thn i sian cos they slp ma...so i done a art piece no is 2...i think is nice la but i dunno other think nice anot la...ya...thn aft awhile saw kelly n her 2 friend....thn they sit down n tok lor actually they wan go hm de but her friend say dun wan go so they nv go lor thn we sit until lyk 5plus...thn we all decied 2 walk 2 esplanded thn they go hm ya.....so we walk walk walk reach city hall le thn we very happy....thn we thought we saww yuan ying leh....thn we walk faster c isit her anot....but heng arh we nv shout arh....arh bo very ma lu lor....thn we reach esplanded around 6plus n is early 6 plus ya...so we sit down there n tok n crap....so funny until lan down there laugh until no soung hahaha.....thn waited 4 sun raise but it nv rasie at tt x so we went 2 sit bus n went bck 2 alj.....went 2 mac n eat breadfast......thn we fall aslp down there la cos too sian liao le only me n kai ping le lan go hm le so lyk tis lor....thn aft tt kaiping wake me up....thn we walk 2 108...cal rui jing 2 come down...while waiting we both fall aslp liao lor....is rui jing wake me up de lor...thn dunno wat happen thn we went hm....i was lyk huh wat happen...blur blur de look lor....haix....its so fun la...haha....

2006-12-24T03:26:00.000+08:00

i think i will sliently love u ba...n let u feel tt i m letting u go ba ya.....i dun wish 2 c u suffer u noe ma...it make my heart break into pieces n i dun mind but i just dun wish 2 c tt happen 2 u can le ya....u happy can le....no matter wat happen i will protect u de ya....k..i dunno wat 2 say le...haix....i think i should stop toking abt u le i wan tok oso tok 2 myself le....dun bear 2 c u get hurt....haix.....y must tis kind of fucking things happen 2 me...WHY....ass hole lor..haix blame myself ba...cos i cause it de ya...haix...sadering